Rant #1759

I just found out that a family member has a fatal cancer (stage 3 or 4) and it’s the same kind of cancer my grandma had. my grandma lived with us while doing at home hospice and all i can think about is how i slowly watched her lose her personality and give up. i’m so tired of medical issues and just life in general. i ended up relapsing after being told about my family member but i need to get these feelings out of my head. i just want one week without something life changing happening. here’s to being scared of the future 💚