Everyday feels like a battle but it’s always just me VS myself. I know I shouldnt care about what others think, I know life has no meaning and it's unimportant. So why do I keep caring so much? Why do I keep being so sensitive? It's so stupid, feelings are so stupid. I hate myself, I hate myself so much. In fact I wish I never existed. The only thing that actually keeps me alive is making my family worried. I love my family sm and i know they love me unconditionally. But everything other than my family just sucks so bad. I have no motivation for school work, even though I'm getting well enough grades I never feel like I'm actually good enough. I'm so tired of being alive, worrying and criticizing myself all the time, I'm so tired of caring about "having a good reputation". I hate how it feels like I'll never love myself and I'll always be depressed and sensitive. It makes me wish and hope ppl would forget me after I die.