...Being childless by circumstance sucks... I want to be a mother so badly, but... there's always a reason why now isn't a good time... Without a partner in this economy, it would be impossible... so... I'm waiting to meet my Special Someone... if he's even out there... I'm trying to increase my faith in God so that I don't completely give up hope... but it's really hard... My life still has meaning with or without a child, but I'm going to be so miserable if the child(ren) I want never become a reality... I don't want my father's bloodline to end with me, and I want a soul to know love and give love to... Maybe someday it'll happen... but while I wait, I'm gonna make the most of my time. I'm going to learn all that I can about processes, options, health topics, etc. so that I'm ready when that day comes... if it does come, God willing... God, if you can hear me, please let this wish of mine come true. Amen.