I really miss my old friends and I hate the new ones. Even if it's just online they meant so much to me now my new friends are just assholes. My new boyfriend (I know online and in real life) doesn't cuddle with me, doesn't hug me, Doesn't hold hands with me, Doesn't kiss, me doesn't care about how I feel. I liked him at first but I feel like I'm just dating him now cuz I'm desperate I don't even know if he likes me either And he just says he does. I just come home hoping somebody text me to see if I want to hang out or something BUT NOOO nobody EVER TEXT ME! I always have to be the first one to text them to hang out otherwise I don't talk to me. And then I have to come home And deal with my mom, I love her but when she drinks she acts stupid, And even sometimes when she's not drunk she still does. My new friends are absolutely weird And the only reason I think they talk to me Is because they want to hang out with my bf.