My dad gave me his credit card for an art festival and gets mad at me and says he's disappointed in me for spending money. I feel like absolute shit and I know my mom is going to hate me too and I'm just so scared all I can do is cry in my room. It's gotten to the point where I fantasize about falling down the stairs or hurting myself just to get attention from them that isn't complaining or them telling me how worthless I am.