Sometimes I feel like I just hate men, even though I don't think it's just because of their gender. i've had so much trauma, not personally, but like with other people in my family, who have gone through all of this emotional mess over men cheating or them getting into porn behind their back. And I just feel like no one stays loyal anymore, even my own dad. And I know that he's been watching porn. I have this guy who I'm talking to, but for some reason, I feel like I don't want to pursue a relationship because I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to love somone and then them just turn around and look at porn or something. I don't think I could handle it if that happened to me. And I've just been really depressed about it because I feel like the guy im talking to is the kind of person who would, but at the same time, I don't want to be like this. Like, I want to change. I want to like men.