I don’t want to feel alone anymore. Dying doesn’t even feel like it would help, only further the burden i already put on others. People think im okay because I’m high functioning but I just grit my fucking teeth and burn through everything I have to keep a smile on my face. It’s so hard. I don’t want to feel like this for the rest of my life. What happens when it gets too hard? I wish I could just give up control to someone else and let my mind finally have some peace.