I really want to just die lately, my life doesn't seem to have any meaning and there's no reason for me to stay here. It doesn't feel like anyone around me truly loves me or needs me and everything is starting to feel like an annoying chore. I'm only 16 but I don't want to grow older because I'm going to be forced to go to baccalaureate even though not only do I not want to but I also know for a fact that I'm not ready for it it all. In addition to that, I'm struggling a lot with gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia. I just dont want to keep going, living is becoming such a hassle and it doesn't feel worth the effort, the pain and the time it takes.