I've only recently started figuring out my morals and values and how to deal with myself in general. I feel so behind and like a child. I fucked up so bad a few years ago and I fear I'll never recover from the situations I put myself in, no matter how much I try to reassure myself that I wasn't in the wrong and that I was just hurt, alone, and vulnerable. I need to get over my guilt and it's so difficult sometimes. I have the most amazing partner in the world and I'm fearful if they find out the things I did before I met him because that wasn't me. It was the worst period in my life and I hate the person I was. I regret every single thing I did that year. I hate how easy I spiral.