I wish I didn't exist. I wish that the people that I have met never met me. I wish that my parents hadn't thought they wanted me. That they'd wanted a child. I wish the friends I have made just left me alone when I was "the new kid" in school. With every person I meet I just feel heavier. Knowing I'm important to someone hurts, because I can barely understand my own importance. I don't understand how these people around me can say that I'm their "friend" or their "daughter" with genuine joy or pride, while I'm staring in the mirror wishing I could die right where I stand. It makes no sense.