I'm slowly starting to hate my friends. They're fine when it's one on one but when it's the whole group they're awful to me. Especially someone in my group who says she's "A sweet soul" when she's caused me to relapse on several occasions. Nobody sees it and I just want to leave all of them but if I do I lose the people who are actually nice to me. It is 100% my fault that I picked awful people to be my friends but I can't get out without losing important people. I have some mental issues, and being around them makes them so much worse. I have 2 friends who I think actually care about me, and even then I'm not that important to them, I'm only kept around because I'm funny sometimes. I know I'm probably just being dramatic but even so it still hurts so much how I'm not good enough for anyone. No matter who I surround myself with I will always end up alone. No matter where I am there will always be someone who people like more. I say "It is what it is" but I'm so close to breaking down.