I feel like a failure. I feel like I need to be perfect. I feel like stabbing myself with a pencil. I don't like this. I feel like I'm being pressured into getting everything perfect or I'm punished. I feel like crying even if I get an A, this feels pointless. Even full scores feel nothing to me. All I can feel is sadness and guilt, I'm the friend everyone can vent to, everyone can be comforted by, but I feel horrible like I'm ungrateful and I can't help but compare myself to others. I feel like everything I do is judged even if it's good. I act childish around others, so they don't waste their time on someone useless. All of this stacked on me feeling like it was my fault my mom can't walk anymore because of that driver. Even any slight movement near me feels like I will get hit even if I've never been hit before in my life. I often can't control my feelings. I don't know what to do anymore, and I feel like everyone judges me for my interest of ants even if they aren't.