I just want to him to hold me in his arms like he did then. I want to burry my head in his chest, close my eyes, and breathe in his scent. He always smells so nice. I want to feel his heartbeat against my head and hear his breathing. I miss him so much. I want to go back to those times and take more of him in. I'm so fucking sad and he was my comfort, but now he's the reason I'm sad and I can't seek his comfort. I feel like I'm dying without him. I feel like everything is wrong. My breathing feels wrong. I feel him stuck in my chest, but I also feel him in my blood flowing through my veins all throughout my body. I can't stand it. I need him out but I also need him further in. I can only hope he feels the same way so we can someday hold each other again. Our hearts can beat against each other.