I want to forgive. But I can't. I want to just forget it ever happened but I can't !! The trust is 100% gone. Been together 11 years and it feels like its just all down the drain. I hate myself because I got cheated on. How does that make sense? I keep going over everything in my mind and just keep thinking if I would of did something different none of this would of happened ... I hope it gets easier. And I hope I can stop bringing it up. That's all for today.