ever since my mom went to her friend's daughter's funeral i havent been able to do anything. i didnt know her but she was living life just like me and couldnt take it. i havent been able to leave the house and am definitelt going to fail all my current classes. how am i suppozed to look my mother in the face and tell her "sorry for wasting all your money, its just i havent been able to get out of bed bc im too busy thinking abt how much i understand that girl." its not fair to her. it feels better to shut myself away but it just postpones the issue. i have to tell her but what will happen when i do? im so tired of everything but i cant bear to tell anyone. i feel so selfish just typing this out. im so tired of feeling guilty.