im not sure if i’ll leave later today. im scared, i never really wanted to die. but im exhausted, it doesnt seem like there’s anything to hold on to. i tried to fill my promises to live with white lies. i do want to live, but it’s tiring to keep going this long. everyday more pain, physically and mentally. trying to hold on, but not trying enough. i’m just giving up. i wish i could apologize for all my wrong doings. im sorry to those i hurt, and im sorry if i wasn’t enough to keep going on. if i do go, i wouldn’t want anyone to blame themselves. even if ive gotten so hurt by them, just forgive yourselves. i was just tired is all. love you