i actually hate the people i have surrounded myself with! i forgot how much i actually dont like these people. i keep thinking its my fault becuase i have a mental disorder but no. these guys actually suck!! I need to go back to being a furry and making art and reading and rock climbing and running and archery and writing books and watching animated shows and stupid furry animations and playing video games. i need to go back to art and skateboarding and keeping up my grades and making awesome culinary stuff. i just fucking hate these people. im thinking about doing culiary stuff after high school. or mabye learning french? going to france? i love culinary things and i think i might want to do that over the medical feild. i feel awful for saying that becuase I got my moms hopes up by saying i wanted to be an emt. but that was when i wanted to kill myself, and was self harming.