god i feel like nothings going on in my life. i used to have it all. fuck man. my life is so boring now. i have no freinds, my hobbies dont bring me joy, im bland, i do nothing. even doing things like hanging out with people sucks. i should probably see my therapist but i also fucking hate her. theres something wrong with me. i hate. where i am right now. i dont want to be this person. i dont like the people i associate and hang out with. they are assholes and incredibly judgemental. i just. i want to make art again. i dont want to be a pussy anymore. im going to actually say what i think. im not going to hang out with people i hate. i would rather be alone than hang out with awful people. im going to save money and do art. im going to watch fun movies and color my hair. im going to see my therapist.