spent 75 dollars on junk food and alcholol and just binged. woke up feeling sucky about both the stupid waste of money and the amount of food eaten. I also have a super big water polo game where my entire team depends on me being there. I actually hate water polo but im in it for my freind. Lowkey hate my job, hate my sport, hate spending money. my birthday is in a couple of days and i didnt even realize it. i cant belive that over the year that i got into college and out of high school i lost all my freinds and i literally dont have any freinds except 2 online ones. i also realized that for the past few months i have been slowly turning myself into more female and christian passing to fit in with the girls at my church. i havent been doing any of the hobbies that used to bring me joy like art and watching shows. just dieting and excercise. i fucking hate the people at church to.