i just dont feel helpful enough, everyday im loosing my spark over loosing a couple friends. i just wanna escape the real world and stay in bed.. my mother talks to a random man on the phone. my mama gambles- im only 10- i never had a childhood. my parents are divorced. i wanna stay at my dads cause he's the only one who brightens up my world. hes the only person i talk to, i jsut dont feel good enough. im going insane with all these thoughts.. help me escape plz.