if i go, im sorry. im sorry i turned 18, and didnt live longer than that. im sorry i never went to my dream school. i always felt lost, that i was only doing things for others. never getting that same effort back, never getting an apology, never receiving affection. i cant handle it anymore, there really isnt anything left. anything to go to, anything to achieve. it just feels like my whole mind and body is constantly in pain. i can’t think for one second without how i was treated and imagining how i could just pass any moment. im impatient, im exhausted that it’s gone this far long. if you loved me, you would’ve shown it before i died