I feel so fucken mad. It makes me happy thinking how much ur in pain. How many hernias u have bursting through ur fucken guts, I fucken hate ur guts. So much time and effort. So much time and effort still pursuing what I have wanted for a long time. Nothing to show for it though, no family, no kids, no partner, no house, no vehicle. Just still hating. I live to think of getting revenge. It makes me so fucken mad to think that u get to be so happy when u carelessly and selfishly ruined mine. I hope there will be a day I get to have that. Someone I once loved I fill with so much hate now.