I’m drowning in my own thoughts and insecurities I’m struggling so much in life I’m socially isolated because I just can’t get up most days I don’t go to school and I have no one to lean on all my energy goes to mentally l preparing myself and even then I want to crawl up into a ball and cry I get so anxious I have anxiety and panic attacks multiple times a day I have acid reflux that’s constantly triggered and I’m on so many medications to help but nothing helps and sometimes I wonder if I just died if I would feel better I hate living it’s painful and I can’t live with the pressure and hospital trip and the constant fear and anxiety it’s making my depression worse and I can’t