I feel like I’m suffocating every breath and word I say feels like a hand around my neck that gets tighter I was scream and cry but I can’t I don’t want to be here anymore but I’ve seen what happened after my dad killed himself and I saw how my mum was but it’s getting harder with each day I struggle to get out of bed or move a lot I pretend it’s all okay and I have tried so much I try to get a therapist and every time I’m put on a wait list because I seem fine and no one believes me when I talk no one listens to me and I can’t I miss life when it was fun and uncomplicated ever since I’ve started high school I’ve shrunk into myself scared that I’ll be rejected and ostracised for being myself I’m struggling to hold on and I want to end it I don’t know how to cope anymore I don’t know how to breath without being constantly aware of every breath and thought I can’t be myself without wondering if I’m being judged I just want it to stop