I'm giving up. I think that everything is just so fucked up, especially with what Trump is doing. I'm a trans man in a red state and every day I'm losing more and more hope. I have no clue how I'm gonna get a house, get a job even in the future. My dreams of going to Germany and becoming an Engineer and going to collage are seeming more and more unobtainable. The main reason I am still here is my mother, couldn't stand the idea of how she would be if I died before her. But if I'm living for someone, I'm surviving, not living. I just wanna live.