how to tell you this all? That I walk around till it hurts no more. This environment is not good at all. It tastes almost bitter and feels quite hollow. Only at night we gather with our painted smiles, but in the mornings we continue to fight I am trying so hard to hide, to make myself small. To not make you feel so upset with me. I absorb all that you throw at me. I do not know how much longer I can hold on I am already in fragments lost myself somewhere on the way. I will never be good enough I know I really am nothing but a burden Is it even worth? I want out.