I am a freshman in high school. I'm planning to go to college and get an undergrad and then go to law school. I'm very high achieving so this is very possible, but I don't actually want to do this. I've looked over many job fields and law is the only one I find interesting. However, I feel like I'm still forcing myself to do this. From an early age, I created my purpose of going to the best college possible. As I grow older and I have more conversations, I realize I haven't found anything to do after. Of course, I'd get a job and maybe get a family. I don't want this though. I don't feel fulfilled at the idea. I just don't understand the concept of my purpose and what I want to do in life. If I was honest, I still have dreams of finding a community and becoming a Youtuber or a streamer. I love the sense of community within content spaces, but it is unrealistic. I have a "bright future" and I am a girl, so misogyny is bound to occur. I just don't know where to go with my life.