i feel sad because i dont know anymore what im doing with my life i kept on working hard day by day but the people here or my support system keep showing signs of wanting to die and hating their life too. its frustrating that the very person whom you should make as fuel to do good in everything are slowly breaking apart. i hated the fact that i have to deal with this dysfunctional family its a burning house everyone are not realy connected i cannot even call it home. i plan on running away with everything and if i cant run i rather end it. now i have an exam even if i have a heavy heart and cant focus i dont have a choice but to force myself and set aside every feelings like bottle them up. i wish life was a little bit gentle to me and it wont make me suffer this much. i wish everything would just end and i wont have to go to school with a mask trying to make myself stay cool about everything even if its breaking me.