i dont know what i want to do with my life, i want to quit my degree but im almost done, only three more months to go, but i dont see myself working in this area and it is taking a huge toll on my mental health just having to go to my internship everyday. i am so unhappy but i dont have a plan b, i have no ambitions or passions so im just completely lost. i have a couple friends, no boyfriend, my family is always disappointed in me, i feel useless and worthless. im not alive for myself, i am simply living for my friends and family. plus therapy is expensive (im on sertraline)

i feel like im going to lose my mind

i feel sad because i dont know anymore what im doing with my life i kept on working hard day by day but the people here or my support system keep showing signs of wanting to die and hating their life too. its frustrating that the very person whom you should make as fuel to do good in everything are slowly breaking apart. i hated the fact that i have to deal with this dysfunctional family its a burning house everyone are not realy connected i cannot even call it home. i plan on running away with everything and if i cant run i rather end it. now i have an exam even if i have a heavy heart and cant focus i dont have a choice but to force myself and set aside every feelings like bottle them up. i wish life was a little bit gentle to me and it wont make me suffer this much. i wish everything would just end and i wont have to go to school with a mask trying to make myself stay cool about everything even if its breaking me.