I'm this prolly sounds dumb but I live a privileged life but I still never feel happy anymore. I'm constantly exhausted in school and I feel like I have no moti nation to try anymore let alone continue to live but it always feels l like I'm never allowed to say anything abt it because I know I should feel happy. I'm also just feeling extremely lonely cuz I almost never see or talk to my friends anymore atp I've lost all contact with some of my best friends because they moved away and even though they moved like a ye a r ago I still blame myself for not keeping in touch with them even though there was basically nothing I could have done.

J is really irritating and such a hypocrite i feel … distancing myself from her

The more I think about it, the more upset I am. I don’t understand why she cannot see that A is contributing more than J. Instead of placating and thanking A, she says A is doing too much. Like what? And then saying we should understand J. This is so warped. I really wanted to tell A that she should not overdo already and she actually has the mistaken idea that she’s being appreciated. She is not. And in fact she finds A being too extra with making changes. I’m sure she will complain to Person. I just hope Person has the right brain to explain to her why she would think this way.