I have been friends with Adriana for some months racism has come up obviously since I am African American from Chicago and she is white from Texas now that our friend Millie has brought up that her brother is racist and homophobic (I'm omnisexual and my whole friend group is gay except for my friend SUSHILA who is aroace) her and my new friend Liz has been making comments about my skin color and it was been to say the least fucking annoying as hell I hate getting comments about my skin because it's not like I can change it I'm proud of my roots as an African American(black) and I don't get why they see the need to make fun of me for it

I'm this prolly sounds dumb but I live a privileged life but I still never feel happy anymore. I'm constantly exhausted in school and I feel like I have no moti nation to try anymore let alone continue to live but it always feels l like I'm never allowed to say anything abt it because I know I should feel happy. I'm also just feeling extremely lonely cuz I almost never see or talk to my friends anymore atp I've lost all contact with some of my best friends because they moved away and even though they moved like a ye a r ago I still blame myself for not keeping in touch with them even though there was basically nothing I could have done.

The more I think about it, the more upset I am. I don’t understand why she cannot see that A is contributing more than J. Instead of placating and thanking A, she says A is doing too much. Like what? And then saying we should understand J. This is so warped. I really wanted to tell A that she should not overdo already and she actually has the mistaken idea that she’s being appreciated. She is not. And in fact she finds A being too extra with making changes. I’m sure she will complain to Person. I just hope Person has the right brain to explain to her why she would think this way.