All Rants

so basically my cat I've had most of my life is starting to get sick, she can barely move and her bones are weakening so today I asked my grandpa where the cat is, he said outside, I checked outside I don't see her at all I came up to him and told him and he still said shes outside but gave me a weird expression. I think shes dead...

I hope that soon the sweet release of death will take me.

all my friends are online, and none of them ever bother to talk to me. none of them bother to be interested in the things i like. all my friendships are entirely one sided and i'm tired of it. recently i've stopped texting anyone first and no one sent me anything. and none of us have busy lifes. it sucks that in my entire life, i have never had someone else who puts actual interest in the relationship. the other day i was talking to a friend, and he says he thinks i don't care about building "connection". i agreed at the time, because it was the first time someone talked to me about that, but after thinking about it, he couldn't be more wrong. he said it's because i don't share things about myself. that one bit is true. and i do dislike doing so. but i remembered the times i tried doing that in the past, including to this friend, and he just didn't gave a shit. so i don't know why he would expect me to do that. anyway, no one even asks things about me. it's always me asking them.

My parents are always screaming at each other, my siblings are always fighting and it takes a big toll on my mental health. It is always a scene of constant fussing and fighting every time I come home, and my parents just seem like they hate each other. I just feel stuck because I have 2 more years until I go off to college and I just don't know what to do.

İ really hate it. Someone was planning a shooting plus bringed a gün intoschool And luxkly it didnt haooened but he had been with cops And everyone learned it...my family is going to make ne go to school i am so scared...way if he does it? What of my friends dies? What if i die? ..i am scared. İ am goign ro school tomorrow And i am so scared i just wnated to have a normal life.i hate it i hate it i ma so scared i hope none of this happens AND HE İS STİLL On THE SCHOOL AND THE ACHOOL İSNT EVEN. CARİGN TYAT MUCH they are saykgn ohh we did our best...dönt worry make süre your kids come to school...they only care about üniforms..i am not okey

I feel like my girlfriend doesn’t really enjoy being with me in this relationship

i can’t do it anymore no one cares anymore and i’ve lost almost everyone. no one listens to me or takes me seriously i ruin everything and everyone around me im a disease

Long story. A while ago, my mom got a bag of "gummies" (REALLY relaxing gummies...) from my aunt, and put them away without touching them. Today, my brother found them, thought they looked good, and had one! Now he's acting completely crazy, and he's totally high. I'm not sure what to do with myself in this situation- we're all totally at a loss. This may seem funny in the future, but right now it's just stressful.

I hate driving so much. I’ve had my permit for over a year and still haven’t got my license. I passed driver’s Ed I just haven’t done the test. Tests really stress me out. I hade to renew my permit because it expired. I’m so terrified every time I get on the road. My mom and dad have been divorced since i was 2-4. I only get to see my dad every other weekend and he’s the only one who takes me driving. He thinks I’m ready but I’m still super scared. I’m terrified of getting in a reck. I started to build up confidence but then about 1-2 months ago I lost it all. I was exiting a parking lot and there was a miscommunication. My dad kept rushing me and so I went. I almost hit a motorcycle and now everytime I get in the car I’m absolutely terrified. It hurts me every day to know I could have hurt or even killed that person. My dad had promised to be clear with his instructions and stop rushing me. It has helped but I’m still in square one, back to never wanting to drive.

So I have someone I really like we only met once a year even though we are living in same city for that three years but now he went to his home and in those time we barely talk. Due our work timing difference. I told him I don't want anything with him when I saw he doesn't care much but then he contacted me again and I we started again but his communication still the same and not giving me time but recently he asked me to meet and come to his state which is not the one I live. So I just want to ask should I go to meet or not. I have some doubt if I want to meet him what should I clarify first.

I miss my grandma. She passed away in august 2025 from cancer. I had been on vacation with my dad when we got the call. We’d just gotten back to our Airbnb after a long day at an amusement park. We drove home the next day. Everytime I go to see my grandpa it feels so weird. I just wish I could see her one more time. Even if it was just for her to retell one of her stories that I’ve heard so many times.

I feel like a failure. All my friends are doing special schools and programs while I can barely succeed in my own. I’m doing bad in several classes and no one knows. I know when my mom sees my grades at the end of the year she’ll be upset. I’m so burnt out and I can’t seem to get my grades up no matter how hard I try. I don’t have a single A. I used to do so good in school but not I’m always failing. I feel like every year it gets worse and worse.

I’m a female junior in high school. I do online school but not by choice, my parents forced me into it in 8th grade. My mom expects me to babysit my two younger brothers, and three dogs. I often have to babysit while doing school. My brothers are very loud and do not listen. I can hardly get school done. I have two C’s which isn’t that bad but to my mom, that’s horrible. She doesn’t know I have any C’s but last year I got 1 and she lost it. I do the most chores of all my siblings (some are older some are younger). She keeps pressuring me to get a license and a job. She also keeps pressuring me about having kids which is disgusting because I’m still a minor. I do believe I need a license and a job but I’m so burnt out right now. Last year (2025) was a horrible year for me. New Year’s Eve, going into 2025 I passed out several times. I had bad health issues. In august my grandma passed and then 9 days later we had to put my dog down. I’m so depressed and I have no one to talk to.

I can't ever be my honest, real self with the people I love. I can't be genuine, honest about my struggles. They're worried, at least I know one of them is. I feel terrible, because I don't want to waste their time with my lies. They deserve honesty, yet everytime I think about actually opening up it makes me nauseous. At some point they'll get fed up with me, I know. They'll leave me, and I'll be stuck missing them. And still, I'm never able to be vulnerable with them. I'm going to suffer the consequences of my own actions, something I could avoid and yet I don't. I'm setting up the stage for my own downfall, and it feels hopeless. Stuck in a prison of my own making.

These days im starting to overthink a lot. Im someone who makes friends easily, not long terms ones but im always someone approachable and always thought I was good at making friends despite being an extreme introvert. Forcing myself out from comfort zone just to make as many friends so I dont feel lonely. I started college and I've been sticking around with my high school friends during lunch. I really enjoy it, but my friend is graduating college and I realised I had no actual friend to even have lunch with now. Thinking about how my other friends where I meet in classes, must have their own friends groups by now, either if they are from their high-school, or new friends they made in college. I really feel like I dont belong anywhere. I recently had a meeting in the school's programme hub. It was just a room where only allowed students from a certain programme to meet and talk. Seeing the groups of friends chatting and having made me feel extremely isolated. I just dont fit in.

Dude I'm an emotional wreck today due to it being my time of the month and I have allergies and all we have in my house is stuff I can't eat and the stuff I can eat got eaten by other people so my mom texts me and I didn't get it so she just orders for me but doesn't orde me what I wanted I just want food bro but she's saying I'm ungrateful and I should be grateful I'm getting anything for not going to school

People - they are a disappointment in life. They think they are the only important people. All my life, I have spent on their terms. Thinking about their comfort, adjusting my life on their schedule, their priorities. I wonder I came to this world for them or for myself. Sometimes it’s always the closest people who hurt you the most. In my case, my parents, my life partner- the hurtful things, the unkind words, the lack of effort, not being able to understand postpartum depression and what it did to me when they decided to hurt me with their lack of awareness of how a mother should be cared for when in her vulnerability. Why can’t I be a priority? My happiness, my comfort, my sleep, my food, my health, body image, pain of loneliness, bitter words. I have suffered all and a 6 month postpartum has lasted more than 2 years. Why? Why did they not let me heal?

Loving someone shouldn’t be a sin.

I don’t want to put down my friend in anyway, but when she said something I kinda felt hurt but I knew that she didn’t mean it that way but still Im scared. She usually has flawless skin and honestly she’s a beautiful person but she doesn’t see that ofc. Today she yelled bc she noticed a pimple on her nose(like I said her skin is perfect) and I didn’t even notice it bc it was so tiny. Ik im being selfish but I felt hurt. Unlike her I have really bad acne and what I usually have is a lot worse, bigger and a lot more on face. Im scared that if she thinks that’s bad the what does she think when she looks at me? Is she disgusted? Is that how people look at me too? I’ve never been that insecure of my acne -ofc I like hate myself when I look in the mirror but still-bc my body and my weight is the thing I hate most. I feel like I’m overreacting but I just gotta get this though out

I feel like I have to fake being myself and smile and laugh and look happy all the time so that people will like me. I think it’s working but I just feel so fake and if people knew what I was really like they’d probably think Im weird :( At the same time I’mhappy because people are finally starting to be friendly with me but I honestly can’t keep this up forever It’s so draining 😭😭😭