All Rants

deadass the only reason i haven’t killed myself is bc of my mom. i sometimes think about what would happen if i did and i think she might kill herself too. i’ve tried a few times, no one knows that tho. but i know they didn’t work bc i was too scared too. and also acetaminophen probably can’t kill u with just like 30 pills or smth idk. i dont think my friends would miss me bc i like never hang out with them. at some point i think they just stopped asking if i wanna go out bc i see posts of them out and i haven’t gotten invitations. i can’t help but feel left out tho even if i know i’ll just refuse anyway. and i feel like when i’m at home i literally do nothing except deadass touch myself like a fucking loser. i actually hate myself and i hate that i’m fat and horny and lowkey a creep all the time bc that’s like losing three times in a row. that was embarrassing to write but that’s okay bc maybe this will make me feel better.

Theater has always been a defining part of my personality. It was something that I was teased about by friends. And everyone knows I’m a theater kid. But recently, two people I know joined theater. Two people who teased me about loving theater. And it upsets me deeply because I feel like I’m losing an important part of my personality. Like something that was my “thing” is being taken from me. And I know I’m already unique and that’s not the problem. I feel like they’re stepping onto my turf. I’m not becoming “the anime kid” or the “sport kid”. So why are they suddenly taking over my area? Especially with the director liking them both better than me. It’s not fair. I’ve been here longer than them and I’ve loved theater longer so why are they the favorites? I feel so… crushed. I feel like I’m losing my mind. And I feel like I can’t explain it to them why it upsets me. I don’t want to be the bad guy. And I can’t tell anyone else for the same reason. I hate it so much.

The Filipino people deserve better. Long live the Filipino people, long live the Philippines. The Philippines is rich; it's just that the people in charge are stupid. But they're only in power because of the voters, right? VOTE WISELY IN 2028. YOU'VE SEEN THE SUFFERING OF EVERY FILIPINO WHEN IT COMES TO FLOODS, STORMS, AND EVEN A LITTLE RAIN. PRAYING FOR THOSE WHO ARE STILL SOAKED IN FLOODWATERS.

I want to pleasure people, like I want to have sex and touch people and compliment them and hold them and kiss them but I can’t. I’m so fucking insecure and scared of my own body that I can’t have anyone touching it or seeing it bare. Even with clothes on, if someone touches my legs or torso, I freak out on the inside. Tbh, I do sh, and I keep the times I cvt mys in my head and whenever someone touches that area, it reminds me of me cvtting mys…

I’m so mad OH MY FUCKING GOD. I’m literally sobbing bc I had a terrible day already like I embarrassed myself and was mad overstimulated in public🫩 then my parents had a huge argument and dragged me into it and I was so late anyway, my mom hasn’t been able to go grocery shopping since last month. This is an ingredient household now bruh. It doesn’t help I have an eating disorder(not body image related) and there’s NO food. There’s snacks here and there and finally I wanted to eat this bagel but my mom ate it. Damn. I was gonna make myself some frozen French fries since I found that and I didn’t eat at all today and I didn’t know they were open and they spilled all over the floor. I was so mad because now I’m gonna have to clean it up and my mom’s gonna yell at me for dropping it and wasting food and I’m still fucking hungry. That was the only slightly appetizing thing. Other options was fuckass mustard mayo jelly or strawberry syrup.

Tera haath dukhta nahi kya itna randi rona karta hai

August 31 2026: I've been trying to get better, but i cannot find a reason to stay anymore, I used to be the brightest light people knew but one day my light had burnt out, there was no reason behind it, well not that anyone remembered it. I tried to fix it but nothing can bring that same bright light back there's little sparks but yet, nothing that really brought it back, my parents haven't been quite helping with the problem if so they've been making it worse, i try too lose weight, Change my voice, change everything I've hated, but no matter what I've done and changed nothing is good enough for others, i hate how i look, i hate i act and sound, i hate everything about me, the more i look the more of the little things on me. Theres moments I'd lay in my room looking for reasons, but since then the reasons has dimmed down too none. I lived off distractions and Reasons. but there was once i time i lived without caring how others seen me, and how I didn't need reasons and distractions.

For some reason I get really anxious and scared and sad when my mom get sick or hurt bc if she dies I’m lowk an orphan and I’ll prob have to live my grandparents who prob hate me or my aunt who’s overprotective or my moms bf who I’m really awkward with even though we live in the same house. I think if she dies I’ll just kms. I plan on doing it this fall/winter anyways so like…

i genuinely want to disappear. this past week i've been feeling so useless and numb emotionally and mentally. i can feel that one of my closest friends is drifting away and i don't know what to do about it; it feels like we've run out of things to talk to, and she's just going with other people. and my self-esteem is even worse, i hate my appearance so much. i just want to cry out, but my body won't let me. and what's worse is that all this makes me just want more attention because i don't feel valid, and i hate feeling like an attention seeker, which obviously this is making me feel like one. i'm scared to live, but i'm scared to die. isn't there a way i can just disappear with no pain?

I had no idea that the people invading my privacy were laughing at me. I hadn't considered that. I guess I'm every bit the idiot the moron says I am.

I hate being female. It sucks. Being a male sucks too, but that's because of other men. We get paid less, respected less, criticized more, expected to look pretty, expected to always act happy. We're expected to be weak and hairless and have an innocent appearance and voice, just like a child. Our rights are threatened or non-existent. We can't complain about our issues, because "everyone has it bad". Men have it better in every aspect. We give birth. We're weaker and shorter. Even in the bedroom, we might experience pain and are expected to submit. Even the height of our pleasure is overlooked in that times. Women can never have it easy. I wish I was a man. I wish I was a man so bad. I don't care if I can't cry if I was a man. That's the only real downside to being one anyways. It's not like women can cry without being judged either. I might be Trans. I might not be. But life would be so much better in every way if I was a man.

I have feelings like its better to be not here

I fell in love with my best friend during lockdown. We were both healing—he from a breakup & I from one-sided love. He helped me snap out of it, draw boundaries & understand what I deserved. We grew closer & confessed our feelings before I moved away. We had another best friend, & the three of us were close. She had a long-term partner, so I never saw her as a threat. After moving, I discovered their hugs, cheek-kissing, flirting & emotional closeness continued inside my home. He says their intentions were never wrong & he planned to set boundaries gradually because he did not want to ruin my friendship with her. Finding it all out by myself shattered me. I trust him & know we love each other deeply. Still, part of me fears I am not enough & that he feels more comfortable with her. We are both trying to rebuild our emotional connection. I am not asking anyone whether I should stay or leave. I only wanted to release our story into the universe & hope it does what is right for us both.

i want to crawl into a hole and die. right now.-f.g

My family thinks that I'm secretly in the closet because I have no dating life. In reality, they all just rely on me too much to solve everything for them for me to have or enjoy any spare time moment to even try to go on a date. I've also found so much peace with myself that dating has become such an afterthought. It hurts regardless when they try to ask about my (nonexistent) love life and ask questions that allude to me being gay when I'm not. Yet I get called delusional if I say that an actor is attractive. Just leave me alone and learn how to take care of yourself, then maybe I can have a relationship. I'm so tired of picking up after everyone so much so that it's cost me so many opportunities and caused too many headaches.

Awful experience: harassment, loss of items & privacy Junior Analyst (Former Employee) - Mississauga, ON - 28 May 2020 High levels of harassment of females by both male & female participants & staff. Biased management & chances of receiving work rigged to support favorites. Preferential treatment of flatterers, liars, sob-storytellers & thieves. Staff encourages misogynistic & incel behaviors. Stalking by former participants & false friends. Privacy & personal space NOT respected. Personal items stolen & flaunted. High stress, nasty environment. No space to think or breathe. Untrustworthy people. No job guarantee.

i love going on here to read peoples rants. it makes me to see all the bad things people are/have gone through but i love trying to cheer them up sm but its so hard to bc i feel like theyre going to think im saying nice things just to say them if that makes sense but im not like even though idk these people when i read their rants i feel like i do and it makes me so sad when they say like “im gonna kms” or “im so ugly” etc etc bc i knowwwww like somehow i know that theyre not ugly and theyre a good person and they dont deserve to feel sad like ugh guys idk but i hate seeing people sad i wish everyone was just happy and everyone was nice to each other and we all loved each other etc etc and im so sad that the world isnt like that bc it would be so beautiful if it were. like can u imagine going outside and strangers treat each other as friends. i mean obvi we need SOME mean people bc without balance life is just obsolete but still like pls bro lets just love eachother n hug evrything out

I’m so tired of life and everything my parents are constantly controlling and even put screen time till ten I’m really tired my dad favors my sister and my parents don’t like my friends I’m just tired ijwtkmys

i had an incredible opportunity to take a position and got offered the job. i accepted. months and months of paperwork and waiting follows. i finally got the opportunity to escape a boring, stagnant state and move somewhere else. environment was full of people who loved to learn and actually enjoyed the work... and it's work i dreamed of doing. it was very specific, niche work all for a clearly defined purpose which i am passionate about. unfortunately lost the opportunity and all future opportunities at the place and the place they are contracted with (for life... hard to explain). it kinda fucked me up and ive been feeling empty and aimless for a week now. like everything i do in the future is a waste, and ill never be able to do something meaningful again. jw if anyone relates to this feeling, and if there's something that would help?

I can't help but feel useless, Im average fat and ugly, I feel trapped in skin, and I can't help but cry whenever I think about all the things I miss out in life because of my family sheltering me too much when I was younger, I feel helpless yet I try to cheer myself up with things I enjoy but lately it's become harder for me to enjoy doing anything much.