All Rants

"Late night finds" but it's me figuring out slowly that half my friend group at school is in love with me but I'm in love with the only one who's taken. -Astro

Do you ever feel like a trash bag while looking at yourself in the mirror? I do. Everyday I look at myself in the mirror I see a midget with an abnormal face

Thank you for your note Io. I hope you get on the team for soccer. -Astro

love it when people hate me just tell me to breath as if that's gonna fucking help I relapsed bad I wanna kms I was planning to tonight at midnight hanging myself and also takeing a hole shit thing of pills or just the pills -signed sTaR

Computer how do I lose weight without relapsing into my ED, stay maintained on my workouts, not splurge by the 3rd day, feel like I’m gonna kms if I can’t hold onto it, diet despite the fridge being filled with junk, and keep my calorie deficit no glue no borax 5 minutes

My parents are so horrible. My mom constantly yells at me and grounds me all the time. She keeps saying that im the issue and im a horrible person and my older brother keeps taking her side. i feel so sad and alone and i just dont know what to do anymore. i have like 1 close friend and i feel so bad bothering her because her life is great and i feel like im just making her feel bad. Im also new in my school so i only know a few people and i cant even talk to the 2 people who's number i have because im grounded. I feel horrible all the time and i have no motivation anymore. im barely 14 and a freshman in high school and im already so exhausted and tired of my life i dont know how i can keep going on like this. this has been my life since i was like 9 and my mind never stops

I’ve been so easily spooked lately, I don’t know why.

I genuinely hate my life. My parents arent fucking married, but i dont care about that. My mom has full custody and its A LIVING FUCKING HELL IN HERE! She doesnt fucking acknowledge my mental health and says i have everything. She says im being overdramatic. She checked my grades today and she got mad. I hate myself. I dont want to eat anymore. Im literally fucking overweight. IM 160 POUNDS AND I CANT! MY MOM SAYS IM CLOSE TO BEING HER WEIGHT. I want to die. I want hannah. I want her here. I want alina... i dont want to anything at all. Im already struggling. I dont want to talk to my friends. IM STUDYING FUCKING PSYCHOLOGY BY MYSELF SO I COULD HELP MY FRIENDS BUT I CANT HELP MYSELF! IM FUCKING DROWNING! Im not ready for high school. Im not ready to live. I hate myself, i hate everyone. I have these compulsive thoughts to wash my hands everytime i pass a sink and i cant stop for some reason. Everytime i eat, the thoughts tell me to throw up and they repeat until i do.

I feel like my body dysmorphia will never go away. Everyday I look in the mirror and hate the way I look.i pull at my skin to try to debloat and then don’t eat anything until it’s dinner time then splurge because I haven’t eaten since yesterday. It feels like a never ending cycle. I feel like I’ve lost myself. I don’t have any motivation to exercise or anything and I struggle with consistency. I don’t feel like I’m living for myself anymore, I feel like I’m living to be skinny. I’ve had this problem since I was in 7th grade and I’m in college now. It feels like it’s never going to get better.

sometimes i just wish i was alone. that the only thing i had to take care of and care about was me. i know that's selfish but i'm so tired. i'm tired and i'm sad and i don't know how to not be those things. i feel like they're just a part of who i am and these feelings are just ingrained inside me now. i hate that i feel like i can't be sad and i have to hide it because, as you tell me whenever i'm anything but happy, you're sad when i'm sad. as if i can help it. as if i could stop because it bums you out. i don't know. i'm tired. leave me alone.

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I have been a bit of a bitch lately and I lash out on my dad and brother for being pissed off and overwhelmed by other stuff. My mom talks shit about dad, my brother talks shit about, and my dad talks shit about both. I’m no saint, I say it direct and try to shut up when they start talking behind each others backs. I’m just sick of it, because don’t be like dad, don’t be like mom. I feel like I was just made with both of their flaws and I’m a big fuck yo barely holding on. I wish I could just fix myself, that my brother could mature, that my parents could get along, or that I would just shut my fucking mouth and leave it be. I always have to say something and I wish I could stop myself. I wish I would stop being so sensitive and emotional, I wish I was a better person. I feel like a massive fuck up and I get overwhelmed and become awful so easily. Is there anything I can do?

yo I found out why I love yandere's so much!! I don't get enough attention from like anybody in my life so having someone completely adore me and be willing to do anything for me actually makes me so happy I know that it would suck irl but still i'm lonely but I don't feel upset about it anymore I just accepted it lwk

While i depressed and going crazy I didn’t even feel real. me and I guy were texting and he dared me to kiss him I said yes since if I didn’t he would tell his friends and start rumors about me it makes me cry thinking about it and I feel disgusting and dirty everyday I want to die

A, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y, Z ….. which letter on the roster should I choose today haha. Women are so pathetic it’s so easy to get them to do the things I want, I don’t respect them at all. If anyone can give me tips or advice on how to stop being a pos as my father would say give me a call at six five one- eight two nine- seven two zero seven

i want to become a dictator like hitler

Today was one of those days that really felt like everyone around me was against me and nobody gave af what I was feeling or going through. But I'm usually the one who worries about everything and everybody else. I get told "it's what you make it". There's some thing's out of my control like how others act. If people wouldn't be such assholes in my family and neighbor wise too I probably would've half have felt the way I did. Why is it those who are genuinely caring are shit on so much? It's really exhausting. Energy and joy killers. I think everyone around me is mentally ill tbh. Why is everybody so on edge all the time and bitter angry sour salty. That gets REALLY OLD LIVING AND BEING AROUND PEOPLE LIKE THAT. AND HAVING neighbors who are like that. I don't need therapy I need out of this toxic environment. The resentment bitterness here feels like you could cut it with a knife. This wasn't the life I imagined growing up in.

I am have some bad habits and straggling with cutting them alone with no help and i got study stress and family prblms isnit enough to be tired and sad and beakdown?

Wow so tries to make point only to be sarcasmed away. Maybe slicing myself is a better option.

A Horsie guy sent me a request, i accepted him and then he just randomly disappeared. Wtf???