I have been in a relationship since February and its gonna end in October mutually agreed. We're breaking up because she wants kids and I don't and this is understandable and valid. I have no hate or ill against her but I feel so much guilt because of the fact I realized I may like someone who I used to have a crush on before I dated her. No I'll never cheat no I won't betray her love I won't do anything while in a relationship with her I just feel so awful and terrible about it even though I'll be single in October i feel such shame about liking another girl while dating her. The only reason im still dating her is because I never took her out on a picnic and took her out on a proper date because she was busy that and she wanted me to go to her mom's wedding. Even when I am single Im not chasing after that girl I gotta take time to myself and process things and evaluate myself. Overall I feel like an awful person and I definitely learned to probably never do casual dating again.
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I just wish I could just die already. My friends are telling me they would miss me but, oh my gosh I don’t know if I could continue living my life. I don’t know if it will get better. I used to think it would, but now? It’s just too much for me. Dangit. I feel so selfish thinking this.
Can I please kill myself.. but like kinda not actually cause my life is kinda awesome, but at the same time I can't take it anymore and I hate opening up, but.. I have a loving supportive family and boyfriend...
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I’m so scared all the time. I always think ‘what do I say?’ ‘What if they don’t like me?’ ‘They probably want me to go away’
The boys is a terrible show AND I AM SO GLAD IT IS FINALLY OVER VICTORY !!!! YAY :))) MECCHA :))) HOLIDAY /)))))))):):)):):):):)):):):):)::)):)::)):):):):):)::)):):
Im genuinely so stressed out. I have severe anxiety so it's not anything im not used too, but god the pressure has been building lately. Where i live you can get yiur learners at 14. Im 15 and i havent done anything about it. Everyone my age had theirs and it's really been getting to me. Im not depressed or anything- atleast I think. But god it feels like every single day I put on this fake smile and laugh at everyone's jokes whilst I make my own im loosing something in myself. I truly have no clue who I am, I lost myself pretending to be someone I was long ago. Intop of that im actually failing school! Lucky me I know i know, dont get too jealous. I listen just as much as everybody else. I watch and listen and repeat until my youngest number and I just can't retain the information. I get handed a paper and forget everything. I try so hard to pretend I know what im doing to the point I look even more stupid than I'd like to admit since im so stubborn.
My cousin, my best friend in the whole world mind you for 7 years after she moved here, left me for her boyfriend. She claimed we "grew apart" and that the 5 months she holds over me mean so much. She left 7 years behind for a boy. I never had many friends. She was my only true one. And she left me. I finally found another new friend after nearly a year. It took a while but we found something we both bonded over and insantly became best friends. We laughed every day. Then i started having to wait for a good day to come or else shed treat me like shit. But i understood why. She had her reasons to be angry. But why take it out on me? Then guess what happened! She met a boy. She wanted all my advice and i gave it. It was fun at first but now her whole belief system relies entirely on his opinion despite the fact that they have met in person once. Suddenly im embarrassing. She didnt tell me that clearly but its obvious. Shes stopped talking to me unless i message. I cant do this again.
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I like hanging out with my friends but the only way I do get to hang out with them is by playing d&d with them. It's fun most of the time but I'm starting to find it boring since its the same thing every session. Most of the table tends to also start talking/forgetting my lore when its brought up or revealed and its just starting to not be as fun. Doesn't help either that no one really reaches out to me but then everyone else in the group is always talking to each other. I'm starting to loathe every session that comes up and I don't know how to tell my dm since the only solution I can see is me leaving and as much as I like hanging out with people, it might be the only way for me to not feel as miserable. (also if you are my dm and you somehow read this, hi dm lol)
Im so tired I dont know whats the point anymore I don't want to die i just want to be at peace i just want to be beautiful i just want to be happy like i used to. why is life like this? why is everything so sad and meaningless? why am i so numb now? i feel nothing, how was i so happy at some point? what was different? i dont know what is burning me out but I am dead inside. I hate myself.
i don’t even know what to do anymore, my mom expects me to do everything and yelled at me when i told her i needed medication i’m the only person that ever does anything around the house and i still need to do more, i’m sorry if i need a fucking break for a day but i genuinely don’f know how much longer i can live in this shithole i call home. and i don’t even know why it’s that bad, my parents yell occasionally but not usually it’s just the recent crap thats getting bad and my mom doesn’t even realize she’s depressed and she won’t get help, my sister has an ED and idk if she knows but I know but i can’t say anything to her because i’m the youngest and they all think i’m naïve and innocent but no I GREW THE FUCK UP AND THEY SHOULD TO I’m tired of getting left out and made fun of by my own family because i don’t trust them and why tf should I trust my mom when she tells everything about me to other people without my consent and why am i getting treated like this i’m genuinely so done.
I'm 15, (he/they) and I low-key wanna play fruit ninja on my legs and arms (ifykyk). Life has been so fucked up here recently and I feel bad venting to people I know irl. I fucking hate life and I would kms if I wasn't so goddamn worried about how my girlfriend would take it. I am afab so I'm trans and no one I know can relate so I'm just stuck in a constant state of thinking I'm faking it and hating myself. Anyways I'm sorry for inconveniencing you!!
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no matter who i am with i feel so idk left out? even if its just 2 of us i always feel like no one has ever truly cared about me, as if im unlovable. even in my family not that there bad there definetly not but my mum would do anything for my sisters and cant even pick me up half the time it feels like there a family and im just living in the house. i always feel guilty even if i didnt do anything i fell impending doom and low key feel like no one would care if i killed myself it feels like im just watching from the sidelines.
my body and just myself I'm disappointed on who I am I am tired of being such a liar I am really just a ugly painting in the back of the museum that no one really cares to look at.
venting is how i get out my emotions but i feel like i do it too much to my friends and i seem too attention seeking and im scared they wont like me anymore not to mention im inlove with one of them and theyre inlove with each other its killing me
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What the heck am I supposed to do when I like my best friends brother but every time a girl that she’s been friends with date her brother they aren’t friends anymore which is the reason I didn’t act and now he has a girlfriend so I tried to stay away but he does this random things that I’m like bro wtf do you like me? I thought you had a girlfriend. I’ve been liking this man for 4 years and I have no clue what to do cause I’ve tried everything to forget him and nothing works
So... there was this boy I really liked and he liked me, but I believe he was using me for s*x... I trusted him and he used me. My mom didn't want me to speak to him ever again, my sister hated his guts, and my sister's fiancé's parents and him hated this boy. He blocked me today and now I'm overthinking everything because he took my V.
My brother loves pineapple I ate his pineapple and he was sad It tasted good for a bit Until its exposed The pineapple still eats at me The feeling is uncomfortable But i have to stomach it Because i ate my brothers pineapple
Sorry I knew i shouldnthave done it, and i realize it was a shitty thing to do, so sorry. I dont know why i did it originally it was because i was worried, Sorry Please forgive me and lets move on