All Rants

Hi, I'm the person that said "I honestly want to kill myself" n' if anyones concerned I was mid episode so as aware as I can get, I uh I'll be... moreee fine... a little while later. Thanks random strangers.

I am really struggling to keep going everything is getting so hard and i lowkey js wanna die

I’m going on a date today with my fiancé yaaay

i just found out he likes me back and ive loved him for years and im so happy but at the same time im totally freaking out and i lowkey thought i would be happier but im like rly stressed but at the same time its crazyyy cus ive wished for this for yearssss every birthday, fountain, star, dandilions, every 11:11, even christmas, lol. im totally in shock and i dont know what to do. i feel so weird, i feel like im not ready to actually put in the effort for a relationship, i dont know how, im so weird, all my interests are weird and dorky and hes probably gonna stop liking me so idk what to do im so scareddddd but im so excited at the same time idk why im so stresseddd shouldnt this be easier? helpp

This is for the person who needs it. You can’t love them, honey. They don’t want you anymore. I know it hurts..I don’t know why they can’t see you, I’m sorry. But, you need to realize crying yourself to sleep every night isn’t helping your frustration. You are a magnificent human being. They can’t see what they lost. You think loving them harder will help, it just fuels a narcissist’s ego. I wish i could tell you what would help…but your best option is to shut off communication. It’s not healthy for you.. what did you do to yourself…? You shouldn’t do that because they don’t want you anymore. It just means God has a much bigger purpose for you. I know it’s hard to believe, but trust me. It’ll be worth the pain.

I feel so empty and sad but can't cry. Why

Wake up, they are gone. You need to wake up. WAKE UP. THEY LEFT YOU, BECAUSE YOU DIDNT FIT THEIR STANDARDS ANYMORE. YOU ROSE SO FUCKING HIGH, THEY COULDN'T STAY. YOU ARE A BETTER PERSON, THEY GOT JEALOUS AND LEFT YOU BECAUSE YOU LOVED THEM BUT YOU WERE NOT HURTING LIKE THEM. OPEN YOUR EYES, I DONT CARE IF YOU TREATED THEM WITH KINDNESS. You will always, always.. be the villain in their story, in yours? They are a victim. Open your fucking eyes. Stop crying over them. They can’t see what an amazing person they lost. So shut your crying eyes, get the fuck up. And achieve your dreams.

I wanna die but I don't wanna kill myself. Please tell me im not the only one. Because I'm not fucking brave enough to actually do it. Nor do I have tools too. I feel trapped in a cage and the key is far from my reach.

Life seems to be kicking me in the ass, cant get a job even tho I’ve applied everywhere, no friends I can actually trust, parents seem to have given up on me, siblings both have better lives than me. Rumors fucked up my reputation to the point people around town get scared around me even tho I’ve never harmed anyone other myself. Why does life have to be so goddamn unfair towards some people. Like what did I do wrong to deserve this?

If I knew our last text would’ve been October, i would’ve never met him. I still miss you. And it hurts that you chose a racial person who talks about 🍇- and tells people to “X-X”. I wish I never got online that day. If that’s what you are into- why did you smile at kindness?

I constantly feel unmotivated and tired and disgusting every day. I never want to get out of bed and trying to make breakfast for myself and take care of my hygiene is so exhausting and I’m so insecure about it. My dad called me disgusting for the state of my bathroom, and I know he’s right, and I hate the state of it and I always want to clean but the action of cleaning drains my body physically. I constantly think I’m a failure at everything I do and I’m such a perfectionist even if most of the time I don’t care. I feel untalented. I feel average. I’m socially awkward and my friends probably find me annoying. I like cringy things and sometimes I wonder if I really embrace those parts of myself or if I really just hate myself. I’m going to get therapy soon because my mom is trying to help me, but I’ve never shared the deepest parts of my mental health like I am now. Nobody knows all this but me and I feel like I’m disappointing others by hating myself this much.

6 months ago, I got in a car accident that changed my entire life. I have been unable to sleep, it ruined my self esteem and drove me to addiction. I want to change things, but its so much to handle...

Why am I so fat Why am I so stupid Why am I forgotten Why does nobody pick me Why am I so ugly Why can't I be pretty Why can't I be loved Why can't I be seen Why can't I love myself Why am I not fucking enough Why do my parents stare at my scars Why do kids in my class look at the scars on my arm instead of me Why shouldn't I just end it?

I always feel so alone. I'm 18 and have never had a close friend; it sucks, kindly. ive been alone my whole life; I don't know what's wrong with me.

Everyone frustrates me at some point, its normal to feel that way but if the people in your life keep disappointing you so badly and so much and you feel like an asshole to them, there is a certain point where you feel as though you might punch someone across the face or shove someone down the stairs.

School has recently started again and I'm now remembering why I'm always at my lowest during the school year. I'm 2 weeks clean and I can already feel the urge coming back. I can already tell 7th grade is gonna be just as bad as 6th, 5th, and 4th grade. I feel like I can't just pick a struggle im too fat, too ugly, and even if I'm sorta smart there's always my friend who is smarter than me. Of course I like my friend and I don't have anything against her I just wish I could be her instead of me. I'm so antisocial and nobody likes me. I'm always the other one. The stress for grades is high too because I'm a 'gifted kid' since I was like in kindergarten. I'm expected to get 100's on all my tests and sometimes lie to others on what I got on my tests/quizzes. Its also hard to get out of my eating disorder from last year and even though I "recovered" I still only eat like 1000 calories a day. I feel like no one is gonna read this nor care but if you do thanks a lot.

I’m so fucking tired. I want to cut so fucking badly to release all this fucking sadness its unreal. I cant seem to do anything right. Be a friend, a mother, a wife, my fucking self. I am so overwhelmed, overstimulated, over every damn thing. Im tired. Just fucking tired.

bruh my life lowkey shit because why is my dad arrested, mom is severely depressed or some shit and is toxic as hell and my brother js attempted od bc of his stalker ex girlfriend like damn am I the problem?? anyway I’m the only not ever taken seriously too

I honestly want to kill myself

rant pt 3 I escaped through the internet, that was the worse case ever, now I hated my body, hated my skin color, how I look in the mirror, was addicted to porn at a young age screwed me over in the process, now I am jealous of the people who looked buffer than me.