All Rants

I hope I die in my sleep, I’m 13, drained, downing salt packets to try to sodium overdose but it won’t work. I hate everything, I wish I was never born.

I feel myself slowly deteriorating and again no one noticed. No one ever noticed when I was sttuggling. If I have to be honest this might sound confusing but I don't really want people to notice I just want people to care and let me live my life. Not do anything just treat me like they did before.

I’m so done with life, I’m only 13 and i feel like nothing I do is good enough, nothing is bringing me joy, I want to end my life. But I stay on this fucking planet out of shame for taking the coward’s way out. I’m stupid, I’m fat, I’m ugly, I’m untalented, I’m annoying, I’m mean. No one would miss me, I’m just a waste of space

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Why does he bother asking me if it’s ok if he goes to do stuff? First of all he’s a grown ass adult so why even ask. And second he’s gonna go do it regardless of what I say so wtf ask? Is he looking for a fight.

My ex-husband infected me with HIV. He has moved on with his life like it's no big deal. I'm too afraid to even try to date. Because i'm scared of what people will say when they find out about it. I mean my whole family acts like I'm a pariah or something. Who would even date someone like me?

The amount of times where I read the cheaters POV on here... they always made themselves the bad guy, saying they didnt do anything. That one girl that cheated on her husband with her co-worker? Yeah, no need to justify that. Even if your husband was getting distand, you could have talked to him like a normal FUCKING adult and talk out the problems. But your needy ass decided you need more sugar for your diabetes. You know who I'm talking about, right? Slut.

my mood literally depends on the music i’m listening to.. like one song can have me feeling happy and the next one has me questioning my whole life

I feel like my mom and grandma are just too hard on me.. I used to live in Ohio with my 2nd mom and father.. and I moved back in with my mom and grandmother.. ever since then they’ve just been countlessly hassling me every second of my life.. and even complaining that I stay on my phone too much.. When there’s nothing to do and I want to talk to my friends?! I can’t even go out freely anymore because we live in a apartment and now they want to cut me off of my social life like they haven’t taken basically everything away from me.. but hey I’m only in highschool so I don’t get to make my own decisions.. I’ll miss Ohio, my friends, and family there 😔 even when I do everything perfectly I’ll still hear them talk behind my back when I wake up in the morning. But I act like I don’t hear nothing and move on with my miserable day. Turning 18 won’t be easy but I hope it’ll give me more freedom to finally choose where I live because having strict parents suck

I'm just so fucking tired of everything, and i don't even know what to do because every choice I have would make it worse, my friends are slowly starting to not include me anymore making me feel more and more left out as each day passes, but then I don't wanna leave them cuz they're the only friends I have and getting a new friend is way to hard for me as I suck at social interactions both in real life and online, and people at school see me as weird because I don't fucking talk much, but in reality I'm always too fucking shy to say anything because im scared of what people will think but I know I shouldn't care but i still do and this is all so fucking confusing for me and I just want this fucking nightmare to end

okay so not a vent but my friend wants me to come over and either try vapes or do shrooms. Any tips? Ive honestly always kinda fantasized doing stuff like this but i do NOT want to embarrass myself in the process. Leave a private note maybe? Thanks! (yes I am of age)

I wish people wanted to know me as much as I want to know them

Im so understimulated and bored. We don't do anything but stay inside or go to the pool. It's the same damn thing everyday. Whats the point in waking up if nothing is gonna happen? Its the same cycle everyday. I wake up late, I feed and water my cat, I eat, I sit in my room, I doom scroll, I draw, I eat dinner, I sleep. Every. Single. Day. I wanna go out and dress up and do something fun. But we don't do any of that. The most fun I have is playing with the dog. Im tired of just sitting inside and doing nothing. I genuinely can't wait for school to start because then I'll actually have something to wake up for other than my cat. I can actually wake up and not be able to predict what will happen. But in the time being I have nothing to do. Any suggestions on what I can do to keep myself busy and not go insane? -LG

I hate myself. I'm so sick and tired of being okay one second, then full of doom and despair the next. I'm tired of living this way, some nights I wish, and I wish I would just die in my sleep so I don't have to do this shit anymore.

There’s so much eating away at me right now, I’m loosing my bestfriend who I get is going through something but so am I. I’ve almost died so many times this week but it’s okay because we have to talk about your problems with the boy you love that you don’t think loves you back but Ik does, your to stubborn to accept my help and actually talk to me like you want to talk to me. I feel like I’m talking to a fucking brick wall. I talk to her but all she ever does usually is reply to me like it doesn’t matter, like I don’t matter. I ask to call but you don’t want to because you’re not in the mood, fine sure great. But when he asks to call I get a text if “OMG INLOVE HIMMMM” and paragraphs on how much you love him but when he hurts you your so quick to forgive I haven’t hurt you like that or at all, I hold my tongue so I don’t start shit between us but somehow the way I feel is my fault because I’m not communicating, how do I communicate with someone who won’t work with me? I’m so sick of it

Before committing, just remember. You have a mom, a dad, a son, a daughter, a friend, a lover, a cousin, an uncle, an auntie, a grandma, a grandpa, a neice, a nephew, a grand son, a grand daughter, a best friend, a bro, a homie, a girly, a baby, an online friend. You have people in this world who will remember you, people who think of you and say, "Huh, wonder what they're doing rn" "Is --__--__--" awake?" "I wish I can play with them" "I wonder what they wanna eat" "I wish I can talk to them" People arent always alone. You can find new people in this world to be friends with. Besides you, DJT, fuck you, haha. And you EM, your truck sucked!

NSFW warning Man, I just love it when compulsory masturbation just destroys my insides. It's so fun when you have to orgasm over and over until you physically can't breathe. It's so fun when you have to clench your muscles until you're sore. Wasting every last drop of energy is amazing! Seeing blood in your underwear afterwards is the best. And cramping for at least an hour afterwards is just great! Just the thought of the way it makes me feel is enough to get me nauseated. My brain has me trapped behind bars. Forcing me to repeat this painful cycle over and over. There's no escape. You're forced to lay there, exhausted, unhappy, and somehow still needing more. I feel so pathetic for letting my brain control me like this.

Is it weird that I don't want to be seen but also what to be seen by others at the same time? Last year at school I purposely didnt talk to anyone because I thought I was too ugly to have a voice. But I still wanted people to think I was something but not at the same time if that makes any sense. Maybe I should just relapse.

It sucks when you want your friends to be near you but you don't want to be near them, somehow I attract people who I think care about me I don't know, and I can't even send a simple "hi" text back without my fingers trembling and my overthinking and I know it's affecting my life since one of my old group of friends is slowly drifting away from me although no one has said anything about me so maybe I am overthinking I don't know again I do try to see online if anyone feels like this (to at least get some comfort) but uh no one feel this way and I'm instead getting people's videos about "top ten worst friends to have" or "how to know when your friend is double sided" and genuinely makes me want to cry because I don't want to be a bad person I'm not a whore but I don't know what I'll do when school comes up maybe I'll just drift away or like just be even more terrible so I know for sure they hate me. man, this did not help holy

I feel like nobody talks about what its like being the 'gifted kid'. Because its so fucking exhausting. Ever since kindergarten my teachers always said I was 'gifted' and smarter than the other kids. How I miss elementary when it was all natural. I didn't have to try and constantly get praised by teachers and peers. It was bliss, I got all the attention and was known as the smart one. Soon enough in middle school I get all the hard classes and have to start putting some effort but its hard to because I never knew how to study or anything. I tell others I never study and just accel but in reality I'm staying up all night just to get an 100 in every class. I cry myself to sleep and even start cutting myself if I get any lower. I'm jealous of people who can just live their lives without worrying so much or being constantly pressured to succeed. Soon I burnout and instead of doing any actual work I just sit in my bed all fucking day being a useless piece of shit.