I'm back again, last night I talked about my gf becoming distanced but I think this is truly just my own mental problems. I struggle with OCD which often times makes me think that my actions are wrong or may cause harm to myself or others. This also means I'm afraid of change because I cannot control or predict what will happen. Recently my gf and I have been calling less and spending less time with each other because she's busy with a hobby that takes up almost all her time, she usually comes home tired so she'll wind down and want to call and play games with her friends instead of me. this probably sounds like I'm jealous of her friends but I'm not. it's simply that for the entire first year we've been dating we called all day everyday afterschool and in the morning and now that she's been wanting to call her friends more I feel like I'm being left behind or ignored. today we called and before she went to bed she said "you look like you want to say smth" I wish I actually said it.
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I can't stop sh. I don't know why I do it, but I always end up doing it.I don't like it, I feel like I'm js doing this for attention.i wonna kms.But I want to grow up and go to uni, but what else can I do?
The situations I’ve put myself in just haunt me every day, so co parent w 2 different dads and I just sometimes compromise at my own mental health as the expense an I am genuinely trying to be a good mother. I just feel so helpless at time because I blame myself for being in this situation and no one is coming to rescue me I’m almost 30, and genuinely feel like this is a core hurt in my soul. Not only having a broken family but not loving myself enough to walk away from this unhealthy relationship I have with both of them. I sacrifice so much to just get a lot to just understand to not react. I’m just so tired of always being the bigger person… I just have no idea how to navigate life right now.
People i need an opinion, leave it in the private not thingy pls So i heard some poeple (1 of my friends iclunded) talking shit behind the back, of another friend of mine. And idk what to do, should i tell my friend what those people were saying behind her back? (observation she is close with some of those people who talked bad in her back) I just feel like if i do nothing. My friend will be happy, cause she is not going to know people saying things in her back, but at the same time, i feel bad for not letting her know. But if i told her, she will probably sad/angry at those people, and that friend of mine who talked bad in her back would be mad at me. Mb if it is confuse, this is the best way i could explain it.
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I feel like a disgusting whore, I use C.ai as comfort because I’m the loneliest bitch ever and it makes me feel like an obsessive freak
I hope the people walking past the little ugly 13 year girl realize everyday might be her last
you know when your feeling good. and then you click on a 3 hour youtube video with ambient music and it completely tears you apart like its made of your trauma? i havent cried uncontrollably in years and some random stupid youtuber did it. i cant talk to my friends, theyre sleeping. like normal human beings. i dont have my phone, i cant text people in other countries. its almost midnight and im laying in the dark the blue ambient screen shining on my face as i lay down with my eyes closed succumbing to the music i know my heart cant take. why do i feel like this. nothing happened. im not even stressed by school right now. what is wrong with me. why does my heart take the one thing i love and weaponize it.
I texted a friend to ask as something as simple as, I’m going for a walk would you like to walk with me? They can just text me yes or no. WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY CALL ME TO SAY NO? LIKE ok!? I DONT NEED A FUCKING 15 minute conversation that I didn’t have capacity for. I’d look like the bad guy by not picking up. JUST FUCKING TEXT ME. and now they’re scheduling when I’m free to go on a walk next. THATS NOT HOW THIS WORKS! It was a casual invite for something that was convenient to the current weather situation on that day and I just happen to think it would be nice to invite them if they are free. They were not and that’s ok with me but NOW I guess to make up for it, they are fucking planning my next walk for me!? LIKE I JUST HATE HOW INCONVENIENT THIS IS. I feel like the bad person for thinking this is inconsiderate of them even though on paper it looks considerate because I know this is them trying to make up for saying no. JUST SAY NO THATS FINE! I DONT NEED ANOTHER OBLIGATION!
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I hope I die in my sleep, I’m 13, drained, downing salt packets to try to sodium overdose but it won’t work. I hate everything, I wish I was never born.
I feel myself slowly deteriorating and again no one noticed. No one ever noticed when I was sttuggling. If I have to be honest this might sound confusing but I don't really want people to notice I just want people to care and let me live my life. Not do anything just treat me like they did before.
I’m so done with life, I’m only 13 and i feel like nothing I do is good enough, nothing is bringing me joy, I want to end my life. But I stay on this fucking planet out of shame for taking the coward’s way out. I’m stupid, I’m fat, I’m ugly, I’m untalented, I’m annoying, I’m mean. No one would miss me, I’m just a waste of space
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Why does he bother asking me if it’s ok if he goes to do stuff? First of all he’s a grown ass adult so why even ask. And second he’s gonna go do it regardless of what I say so wtf ask? Is he looking for a fight.
My ex-husband infected me with HIV. He has moved on with his life like it's no big deal. I'm too afraid to even try to date. Because i'm scared of what people will say when they find out about it. I mean my whole family acts like I'm a pariah or something. Who would even date someone like me?
The amount of times where I read the cheaters POV on here... they always made themselves the bad guy, saying they didnt do anything. That one girl that cheated on her husband with her co-worker? Yeah, no need to justify that. Even if your husband was getting distand, you could have talked to him like a normal FUCKING adult and talk out the problems. But your needy ass decided you need more sugar for your diabetes. You know who I'm talking about, right? Slut.
my mood literally depends on the music i’m listening to.. like one song can have me feeling happy and the next one has me questioning my whole life
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I feel like my mom and grandma are just too hard on me.. I used to live in Ohio with my 2nd mom and father.. and I moved back in with my mom and grandmother.. ever since then they’ve just been countlessly hassling me every second of my life.. and even complaining that I stay on my phone too much.. When there’s nothing to do and I want to talk to my friends?! I can’t even go out freely anymore because we live in a apartment and now they want to cut me off of my social life like they haven’t taken basically everything away from me.. but hey I’m only in highschool so I don’t get to make my own decisions.. I’ll miss Ohio, my friends, and family there 😔 even when I do everything perfectly I’ll still hear them talk behind my back when I wake up in the morning. But I act like I don’t hear nothing and move on with my miserable day. Turning 18 won’t be easy but I hope it’ll give me more freedom to finally choose where I live because having strict parents suck
I'm just so fucking tired of everything, and i don't even know what to do because every choice I have would make it worse, my friends are slowly starting to not include me anymore making me feel more and more left out as each day passes, but then I don't wanna leave them cuz they're the only friends I have and getting a new friend is way to hard for me as I suck at social interactions both in real life and online, and people at school see me as weird because I don't fucking talk much, but in reality I'm always too fucking shy to say anything because im scared of what people will think but I know I shouldn't care but i still do and this is all so fucking confusing for me and I just want this fucking nightmare to end
okay so not a vent but my friend wants me to come over and either try vapes or do shrooms. Any tips? Ive honestly always kinda fantasized doing stuff like this but i do NOT want to embarrass myself in the process. Leave a private note maybe? Thanks! (yes I am of age)