All Rants

this isnt really a vent but my brother keeps talking bad about me and only cares about his friends and xbox he puts his finger in m ear and forces it into my ear it hurts really bad, im only 9 and it makes me cry because im venting at a younge age

i am an only child, so i don't plan on getting into relationship unless i give my parents a better life that they deserve. my father did not finish school, he only got into 2nd grade , but my mom did, just that she did not go through college because she have 9 siblings and her family are poor. both of my parents came from a very poor family, barely having anything to eat. but although they are poor and experienced hardships when they were still young, they are doing their best to give me the life i deserve. i got into a university with no tuition and got a scholarship. i am doing everything to keep myself busy to i won't think of getting into a relationship, cause i firmly believe a relationship is dstraction for someone with dreams, not just for herself but most importantly for her parents who didn't get to experience the luxury of life. (dn)

I cant do anything for myself I always have to consider how everybody else wants it not my own place not my own profession not my own time only for everyone else. I try to please them because im thankful to have them in my life and I dont eant to jinx anything I still want them happy but why does their happiness also include ky limitation and total dependence on them

i hate it when my friends get into relationship, i hate the idea of it. because there was once a time when a friend of mine got into one, she totally forgot my existence and solely focused on her lover. eat with her lover, go somewhere with him, when in fact i was there before him.

What really irritates me about most people who claim to be politically, socially and environmentally aware is that they will preach about it constantly and try to educate people and shame people for not meeting their high moral standards... ...but then as soon as you mention that veganism is the way forward, they stop listening. "Yah no I'm not going vegan". I see it in real life. My friends preaching about how bad AI and climate change are while eating a ham and cheese sandwich. I used to be in environmental activist groups and most of the people there weren't vegan. I know Green Party members who eat meat. I just don't get it!!! Not to mention the friends that post about boycotting companies, then buying from those companies right before my eyes or posting what they bought on social media. Life is starting to feel like a badly written soap opera with all these character inconsistencies and plot holes.

i feel so awkward around ppl who look / are rich. this doesn't just apply to people, places that seem like they're "for the rich" or just have those vibes make me uncomfy. idk whyyy. maybe it's cause i feel like i don't belong there. kinda like a fraud or a misplaced item. idk man it just irks me.

I can't believe how my life went man, from bullying to ostracization from people telling lies about me to break my reputation from my family all being mentally ill to bullying/abusing me. It's just crazy man, to even just think about how my life went and how it could/should have been is just to cry about. And then people tell you you're not justified to feel bad or grief something while the same people gave you those feelings. Society just doesn't teach that everyone should be respected.

I hate when people I work with freelance start thinking of me as their employee. I'm not your fucking employee. You don't get to start trying to control my movements. If anything the moment you start acting like that, I don't work with you anymore. Bye

I messed up i ruin the only relationship that made me feel happy even before she blocekd me i wounld'nt be lieing by saying i felt that happyness again like everything was ok i had someone i miss her even after we both did what we did if given the chance to do it all over again i would with out one thought in my mind but shes gone and idk what to do i wanna reach out and let her know how i feel how she makes me feel but i dout it will matter she gonna block me again ik i have to let her go but ik its sad but without her idk how to move on

My older brother is an incel and i can't take it anymore, this guy has such a delusinal world view. How tf do i cope with it. The amount of influence he had on me is incredible, i can't believe he lied to me about being able to get with women. I know he doesn't get women, the guy is 165 cm obese, zero muscle mass, hates on better looking women, doesn't know shit about sex, or relationships with women. Hates on better looking men, claims i couldn't get with women at my age cause i was ugly but he himself is cancerous ugly and then proceeds to claim looks don't matter. The guy sees a couple walking on the street and not knowing if they ever fucked or not, or what their relationship status is, claims that the guy is on a date with a hooker and it's called 'girlfriend experience" LMFAO this guy is as dumb as you can get em. Please help me my head is about the explode.

For real. Keep fucking with people you're just asking for it to rain stuff down on you. I hate having the worst neighbors seemingly in the area it feels like. I don't effing know but fafo. I'm sick of people's shit.

Don't invalidate me. Ok. You'd think your family of all people would validate you but no. I was woke up again for the 5th or 6th time this fucking week. I merely get up to fix breakfast and I tell fam what's what. All theyll say it'll be alright. That's like rubbing salt in s wound. Anybody who has their sleep disturbed REPETITIVELY by others you ought to know theyre gonna be pissed. Yet they invalidate me like it's nothing. My family is like this because of it doesn't affect them they hardly had and I hate it. These shitty people that live a above us HAVE NO BUSINESS STOMPING THE FUCKING FLOOR AT 5AM IDGAF WHAT THEY IF THEY'RE GOING TO THE MOON OR NOT NOBODY SHOULD ACT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The talking option went out the window when they reported us multiple times trying to get us evicted instead of coming and talking or leaving a note. They're a bunch of inconsiderate c#nts. Why do people have to be/act like this. I've done them no wrong. Son of a bitches. I hate ppl like this

Im kinda tired of my dad complaining about everything. -LG

i don't think i can face another school year. i self-harmed last year and had suicidal thoughts. i just thought i'd gotten better recently but i also feel trapped, because every single time i finally feel happy i relapse, and i hate myself so much. i dont realistically see myself making it to the end of this year, and i'm scared

I'm genuinely really scared rn So I used to self harm and I met a therapist for it I stopped after a while and haven't done it in a couple of months I don't know why but I feel like doing it rn and it's making me feel like crying because i know I haven't been in the best place mentally but I thought I was handling it really well

So, I've had this crush on a really cute, kind, and funny guy for over half a year, and it grew to be so big that I decided to tell him. I've never done that before, for anyone! So, on the twenty fourth of June, I wrote a letter to him and handed it to him in the afternoon at the last friday before the end of school, telling him how I felt. I was positive that he liked me back (otherwise I wouldn't have given him the letter), so I was flabbergasted when looked straight into my eyes and told me, "sorry, I not looking for someone." And you know what made it worse? Two of his friends were right next to him when he read it, and one of them was friends with one of my besties! Like, I'm just so, so... sad/mad! But I still can't even hate him!

i have like legit no redeeming qualities :'')) it's hard to imagine myself being liked by anyone (romantically), when i can't even imagine myself liking others. i just don't think i'm "worthy" enough to be liked by anyone and be interested in someone like that. there's this certain mindset of "someone would suit them better than me" i've never experienced any sort of feeling of liking or wanting to be with anyone in that manner and honestly, i don't think i ever will. it's hard to feel confident about myself when all i feel like i do is do things wrong and look like a disappointment looks-wise and personality-wise. :'))

Im really struggling with finding out this year that the person i was closest with for years and years was actually abusive and coercive in all ways you could think of. But, also at 11 they had always been more mature and developed despise being the same age and they are the reason im struggling with cocsa. They did horrible things looking bacj and i just felt like i couldnt say no out of guilt, they manipulated me and now ive got all of this in my head worsening me. I cant see a solution.

i'm so over women who get all sad because the guy they were in a situantionship with didn't want something serious. like, girl, you KNEW it wasn't serious. what the hell? why do you keep expecting more out of these guys when you know they don't want it? why do you keep saying yes when you know you want more? why are you wasting your own time and breaking your own heart? you knew what this was, but then you still want to pretend in your head that it was more???????? if you want more, say no to those guys and only go for the serious ones. the fact that you don't only shows your desperation and that you're willing to sacrifice your emotional happiness for this short term thrill and because "i looooooove him". well, he doesn't love you. he never said this was about love. that's i like about guys sometimes, they are straightforward. but nooooo, it's delulu women who only hear what they want to hear. oh, and "I can change him". ugh. you deserve your heartbreak.

why do i lie to get a laugh out of it. why do i pull pranks that go too far. why do i laugh at others pain. why do i do self harm. why am i a horrible person. should i just die already