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i hate how i look when i take my shirt off. im too skinny and wish i didn’t feel like this or look this way but i cant stop hating myself for how i look. i cant even go swimming without a shirt, not even with just family or friends. i look skinny fat and i hate myself for it.

My family is always telling me to surrender my phone but, in my phone, where i can find the one thing they truly cared about MY FUCKING GRADES!!! Its like they only notice me when i have a bad grade or got the even the lowest score on non recorded quiz. I FUCKING REPEAT NON FUCKING RECORDED QUIZ... I hate them so much... i really hate them i really reallly hate this family i wish i could just take my own life that way they wont have a disappointed excuse of a son like me i hate them so much i reallly fucking hate this family

the prettier a girl tries to look, the meaner she will be to you (unless people are watching) when she realizes she can't use you for more status or connections to random boys. change my mind!!

I see ppl ask “why do cheaters cheat” I can’t speak for everyone but I have cheated on someone. My “reason” which btw bullshit no excuses for hurting people, was I was being emotionally abused, trapped in the relationship unable to leave since she controlled my living situation, my car insurance was under her name, and I wanted to feel “loved” it wasn’t love it was attention. I’ve learned since and grown it was 6 years ago and I still think about how I hurt her every day. I will never forgive myself n that’s okay.

why do they need to hate about my religion. yeah ur atheist i get it but what is your issues to hate on us. Genuinely what the fuck is wrong with you.

Sometimes I don't feel like a "real" lesbian because I don't have the same taste in women as the community e.g. Chappel Roan, Kristen Bell, alt girls, whatever... in fact I am not actively attracted to 98% of women I see. I'm definitely not straight - the issue is that I don't feel "gay" enough because it's super rare to see a girl I actually like, but then when I do, suddenly my feelings are undeniable like they never went away. I'm kinda embarrassed about it in real life; people will show me random "hot" women and I'll be like "uh huh, yeah... she's nice"... but in actuality I don't care that much. But then when I see a woman that I like and I picked out, my brain goes crazy. I've never told anyone this in real life because I'm worried they'll see me as a fake or something.

I'm 21 years old. Back in February, my ex-girlfriend ended our four-year relationship. We had our ups and downs, but we always managed to overcome them, so I never thought we'd end up as strangers. She's in everything I like songs, movies, video games, places, memories and I can't get her out of my head. I've tried everything I could to feel better, yet here I am, six months later, still attached to a ghost while she's out there living her life, and I don't even know what she's doing anymore. I tried reaching out so many times, and I think it only made her hate me. I'm currently battling depression and, at times, episodes of dissociation. I'm also struggling with alcoholism, and I'm not proud of it. I know I keep telling myself everything would be better if she were here, but that's not possible. I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like the world stopped being beautiful the day she left.

i'm so so scared to do it that by just thinking about doing it, i overthink everything and get so anxious. i'm scared to take a step which ends up making me so stagnant right now. i know it's my fucking fault but up until now i still don't have the courage to make a decision. and this is so fucking miserable

People are so flawed and imperfect and don't care about the stuff that I care about. But then they feel the need to criticise me for my mistakes and not caring as much as they do about certain things. Like sure, I probably don't care about people as much as I should, but I care way more about animals than most people do. Animals are innocent, they might bite you sometimes but at least they don't call you the r-slur. Of course I'm naturally gonna care about them more.

i lowkey don't want them to work together, or more like, if ever there comes a time when they need to work apart, i just hope the man gets a solo project first. so if people start blaming someone, at least the blame falls on him first. because i feel like if the woman gets it first, she'll be criticized way more. idk, but women almost always get crucified first and harder, even when they were just put in that situation or didn't really have much of a choice

idk what to do my mom used all my pads and I only have 4 decent ones and some thin ones and day just started 🫩 ofc she used all my good ones and then when I ask for more she brings back these thin ass pieces of paper WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT???

I know I'm meant to stay miserable. It's what I wished for, just so I can finally get the sweet release of death. I'm crying so bad. I want the universe to take me already. I have no will to live anymore and I am hesitating to do it with my own hands because I'm naturally a coward. Please give me terminal illness so I can finally prepare and rest. I can't do this anymore it hurts. I don't want to live longer. I've always stayed miserable and hopeless for my entire life. I don't want to keep living anymore. I give up. Please please please let me die a natural death. Let me die from terminal illness. If I can afford euthanasia, I would do it in an instant.

I think my stepdad was having a bit of a dig at me earlier when I offered to make him a coffee a while after he got home. If he wanted one as soon as he got home that bad then he could have made his own. But no matter how often I offer to make a coffee or tea, it's never enough. I wasn't planning on getting stoned today but this has put me in a bit of a shitty mood and I'm struggling to think of anything else. Not just this but the fact that people make up rules without telling you and also don't communicate with you and expect you to read their minds.

when will the u.s. have a national transportation system. that's all

my first job starts at the end of the month and i'm already dreading it. it's a full time job, in a workhouse, 9 hour shift, mandatory overtime/weekends/most holidays, 45 hour workweek (most likely). all that for $18/hr. i can't even say no because i need this job for health insurance, since i got kicked off my parents' insurance for turning 26. i dont want to have to work for the rest of my life. how am i supposed to live my own life when all i'll do is work?? my only friends are online, and with my job hours, it'll be impossible to hang out. even now we struggle to find time. why is the system like this?? i dont want to be exploited for 50+ years as a cog in the machine that is society. why is this considered normal??? at the end of the day we are still animals; we need down time. hell, we are capable of it. money shouldn't matter this much. it's all so messed up, even more so because i know nothing will change until the day our species dies out. i hate it here so much

Today, I found what WhatNot is... Scumbags. The fact gambling on TCGs now has layers, how can these douchebags live with themselves. I need a hug.

I love it when people make such an insensitive and genuinely horrible joke about a very tragic situation like a war leader or some towers!!! It really makes the situation less worse then it actually was!! Oh, a few thousand, million, or billion deaths from some other specific events?? Yeah, I'll make my entire personality about making that one specific event look like it was just a nice chill day on the beach! (This is targeted at one person, one person only. You know who you are, quit joking about the painter, the towers, slavery, and now you seem to genuinely like the orange. I regret ever becoming your girlfriend. Hope you actually learn to pay attention to something for more than 5 seconds instead of doomscrolling like a fat fucking dickless man who cant even make me shine my clementine and make some whipped cream in bed. Such a genuine disappointment to Earths population, but if you died, your fatass would bring the population down by thousands.

Today, I was packing cheese w my mom, aunt and younger sister. My aunt said shes overwhelmed because my mom keeps saying to my sister that we're going home although we still have many cheese to pack, then my mom shouts at us (my sister & I) to go home and that we're packing our bags to go home to romania and staying in the house all these remaining days in spain. She tells my sister and I that we are the problem that apparently were bitchy, but all I did was just pack cheese and shut up. I'm getting tired of my mom. If i were to tell her anything, she would have beaten me up. She always wants to beat me up. I still remember when I was a kid and getting hit by her. I don't know what to do anymore, I live in a family full of stupid people (except my aunt)

No I don't have a therapist. I get random memory flashbacks of fam mistreatment I hate it. They don't understand the amount of verbal abuse I've received because they were always fucked up drunk or in withdrawal when it happened or who knows what. Tbh therapy should really be free and the therapists should be state or province whatever paid. That's a barrier deterring people from getting help they need. Not everyone is crazy. But the violent acts I see on the news prove the mental health issues are real in people the last while.