All Rants

With school coming around, I don't want to go like usual, but I don't want to see my friends or anyone else there. I was happy by myself and my family, hanging out with my close selective friends, but now summer ending I have to see everyone at school and friends. I don't want to see them and I really want to forget them in the future when I'm on my own. Idk why, but I don't want anything to do with them, I have to go back being a nobody at school. I have already accepted I'm not going to be anything special to my friends except myself and I was happy with that, but damn I gotta be back with them. I just get disappointed thinking of seeing them and guilty at myself for feeling this way... Anyways, sorry to bother you and I hope you have a good day and things will work out for you.

its me again i also keep thinking about 3 excessively and like i care to much abt 3 and like i like wanna say luv ya bud in like a friend way but im scared 3 is gonna be like uh u high on smt? and 3 also has a girlfriend so like i cant say that but i feel like no one ever tells 3 they love 3 or they car or they are proud of 3 so like.. but 3 wont tell me who 3's gf is so like..-f.g

i wish i was good at soccer. im 13 and i suck because this is when im starting. i hate that i didn't start at like 5 or 6 years old like everyone else. i was able to go to a few things to help me with soccer. but in total i probably only have 3 1/2 months worth of soccer experience. im trying out for school soccer in the winter and i really hope i don't get cut...

why does my dad have some sorta beef against air fryers. every time my mom uses hers he turns it off for no reason then denies it when she complains about it and starts acting dramatic covering his ears running outside?? 69yr old man btw...

its me again and these are not like weird weird get ur mind out of the gutter but like they are like my friend imma call em 3 idk y but 3 texted me like oh we should start dating but this was a dream i also had a dream where 3 liked asked me out so like um... like uh... help i need advice also im a girl and 3 is not a boy so um.. but like...-f.g

My boyfriend won’t stop touching me in places I don’t want him too. We’ve talked about it before, but he won’t stop. It makes me sick, but I’m too scared to leave him because he’s the only guy who’s ever treated me as well as he does. He promises me everything o wany and works hard to make me happy. But it makes me so uncomfortable and hurts my feelings when he steps over my sexual boundary, especially because he knows I’ve had trouble with SA

uh so basically im pretty sure im straight but ive been having weird dreams associated with one of my friends.. uh am i not straight? help.. but like my friend has a girlfriend... so um... what the fuck do i do?-f.g

When you yelled out “I love you my twinkling watermelon” what did you mean by that? Were you talking about her Palestine watermelon or whattt??

One time i cried in an argument. Then my mom said it wasn’t boyish. But why? Boys are supposed to be strong and manly, but that doesn't mean we don’t have emotions. We are all humans. We all feel emotions. So why?

today I was so frustrated and irritated and embarrassed. I don’t wanna get into it all over again cus I’ll cry more and it was so complex but it was BAD. JS know that. Anyway I felt SO overwhelmed and overstimulated. I had a headache, my feet hurt, too many people were trying to talk and touch me, when I didn’t respond immediately I got called rude, I was on the verge of tears, I was hyperventilating, my shirt and hair was itchy, I was really hot, I couldn’t stop twitching and shaking, it was BAD. I felt everything at once and it hurts to know no one took into account how I feel. Like no gaf and you can clearly see me upset and ppl just kept yelling at me or talking to me. mind u even if I wasn’t overwhelmed I would’ve acted similar bc I have inattentive adhd and NO social skills. deadass I wanted to leave so bad and just go home and cry and I’m glad I had my best friend there she even door dashed me McDonald’s I love her sm but it was pretty shitty

When i start an argument, i’m the problem. But when others start an argument with me, i’m the problem. But if i try to stop and argument, I’m still the problem. And also i am constantly used as a scapegoat. So why?

id love to tell you why i did what i did, id love to try to take accountability for all the actions that i deeply regret, though honestly, i think you guys dont wanna see me anymore, and thats ok in my book.

I don’t know when it got to me being the Cinderella of my family. I’m just trying to do my own thing and keep to myself but my family can’t handle life on their own. They always want me to do things for them and throw fits when I say no. I should be able to say no because they are all capable of handling themselves and their wants. I can’t take it anymore. I just want to get my own place where I can do whatever the hell I want. I also want a man in my life, I’ve always loved romance but at this point I’m just trying to find some peace away from everybody. I couldn’t handle another person trying to dictate my life.

I’m not an angry person but my family makes me into an angry person. They act like I’m some villain when I’m the only one who does anything. Everyone else in my family does nothing and doesn’t really get told anything but I’m constantly berated. That’s what makes me angry. I’m actually fed up being told to do this and that and when I try to say that I need some time to my self I become some narcissistic villain in their eyes. My mom and I use to get along so well but I think the longer I live with her the more irritated we get with each other. My sisters are all lazy and don’t do anything for themselves and expect me to do stuff for them. I just want to be on my own and not have anyone nagging at me. I mean yeah I live with my mom and don’t pay rent but it’s one thing to just make me do everything. I have a life I need to live and I need time to actually find a good enough job that I can leave.

no one is ever going to care about me and get to know me as i do to other people

Just my freaken luck. Company iPad was put in my drawer and I forgot all about it and now, it’s missing. And my boss does not know about it. I M dead

my roommates are fucking door psychos god forbid i close the fucking door my room is IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN. GOD FORBID I WANT PRIVACY????? I WAS BUSY LOOKING FOR JOBS. MY BATHROOM IS IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN TOO LET ME HAVE ONE FUCKING THING

I thought my mom was my best friend but I’m starting to realize that she might just only like me for my usefulness. She’s told me in the past multiple times that she would disown me when I did something that she found upsetting when it wasn’t really at all but me just putting boundaries and trying to be myself. She gets like that a lot when I bring up or hint at not really wanting to do certain things for or go with what she wants. I’m literally an adult to, like I don’t even have to live with her, I just need to get a job before I can afford to leave. She’s moving to a new house and I don’t really want to go because she only really cares if I go to do everything for her. We even have to make a long drive to this new house and we drove already a few times there and back and it really pisses me off that she makes me drive almost the whole way and when I get tired and ask her to drive she’ll say she’s tried and can’t drive and then say do want me to fall asleep while driving.

I honestly cannot be around people who act like they can’t do shit for themselves. I’d love for someone to do everything for me but I’m not going out of my way to be rude and demand people do things for me. I’ll do it myself before I’d ask someone else. It’s different to when someone offers to help you but otherwise it’s your responsibility. If you physically are capable of doing something then you should do it. I’ve lived around too many who just expect me to do things for them and they get upset when I tell them no but I have no obligation to them.

I try to be a good person but sometimes I just get so fed up that my mouth gets ahead of me.