All Rants

rumination and holding onto grudges is killing me. ive say ive gotten over a fair few, one of mine presumably moved away. most of my grudges are not the most…. mature people, so i’ve been trying to treat it with the same maturity they give me. as in, if they think it’s stupid and doesn’t matter, then it should be stupid and not matter to me. and the thing is i don’t really hate them. i care a little too much. i often fantasize about what i could’ve done to make it better. or have a little savior complex moment here and there. but it’s not like these situations are gravely serious. it’s always an offhand comment, i mean i wouldn’t mind if i never saw them again. but i do. and i wouldn’t lie if i said it doesn’t make me anxious. ive gotten deadass beaten by people in the past for literally no reason so i think thats partly why

People getting called out for bodyshaming being like "I'm not talking about naturally skinny people, I'm talking about people who's bones you can see" YES STOP BODYSHAMING THEM TOO! When you bodyshame one person like that, you bodyshame everyone with that feature. Including sick people, people with fast metabolisms, people struggling with mental health and/or addiction, people with digestive conditions, people who can't afford to eat 3 meals a day, etc.

need some tips on how to somehow numb down the pain on my molar tooth. uhhh everything is costing money and i don't wanna bring this up to my family since we're paying for a whole lot of other things. i still got my college stuff, apartment, groceries, and other family member's health issue. idk like i can manage with my eyes (though i kinda rlly need glasses too) but my tooth is aching harddd...been tryin to numb it down with water but it js goes back..wish stuff weren't so expensive

Me and my bf have this otter plushie I got a few months back and his name is merci. Whenever I feel sad or alone or upset or mad I grab it and cuddle it. It reminds me so much of him. It brings my comfort, even though we are long distance I feel like this is the closest thing to him.

I feel like trisha paytas on her kitchen floor era.

My roommate is a dick who freaks out about taking responsibility for things, tries to throw it on other people, then insults the people that were actually involved in making a difference. He shames people for having normal food preferences whereas he's an incredibly picky eater. He gets super defensive when pressed, and doesn't know how to problem solve so he gives up early about perfectly resolvable things. Basically he's a manchild that doesn't have empathy or knows how to collaborate with other people. I'd rather never have to associate with him again. His presence is actually repulsive to me and I can't wait to move out.

everybody gotta go i can’t even lie anymore

I don’t want my bf to text me that often. I know that sounds bad and that he’s a bad “bf” but I know the reason why. The reason why is because my ex bf use to do that. He’d text me 24/7, he said he loved me. Called me pretty,beautiful etc. he said so many things to me. And now since he left because I wanted to kill myself. Jesus have I been on my guard around my “new bf” since last August when we became a couple. I told my ex bf about my Irl name the first or second day of us dating. Because of that it took me 5 months to tell my bf my irl name. I just don’t want to get hurt again. I know my current bf would never he’s so sweet and supportive and caring to me but a part of me is scared. Scared he’d leave because I told him I want to kill myself. Or try to. It hurts to think about. It’s like I put my guard up so much when I’m with my bf. It’s like the fear and anxiety never left me and I still have it in this relationship. Even though we are one year officially. I still have that. I.

My mental health is getting way worse. I haven’t showered in a week. (I know disgusting.) I feel so disgusting. Like icky. Like I’m so fucking disgusted with myself. Everyone I know is leaving and i can’t stop it from not happening. It hurts so much. I just feel like I’m drowning and I can’t get back up cuz I’m too deep to be saved. I’m so fucking jealous of people who are perfectly okay in life and are normal. I’m anything but normal. I’m poison. I come from poison. And everything I touch ends up falling apart and become poison. I’m so tierd of living, it’s so exhausting. It’s the same thing every single day. I wake up, I go to the bathroom, I eat, I scroll TikTok. I jst feel so alone. Like no one cares I’m here so if I would jst kill myself then I wouldn’t have to feel the feeling in my chest and stomach. I just hate waking up jst for it to be the same thing every single fucking day. How do people do this everyday? How. I can barely survive like this. What’s so normal about Ts???

My fiancée blindsided me on my birthday with a breakup after meeting her entire extended family. This was a month ago and I've had so many emotions and crying. God it just hurts so much. You have this person who you love so dearly. You tell her every little thing and she does right back. She tells you about mundane boring things and yet you hang on every word because if it's her talking, you could listen all day no matter the topic. And now it's just silence and this horrible discomfort in my throat begging me to talk to anyone that could listen. But no one listens like she did. We had our struggles of course and things got really rough, but we kept scraping by with each other. She told me she's exhausted. My struggles are burdening her. I apologized so much every time she brought that up, but it ended up being too much for her. It's funny how love puts the blinders up. A month later with more clarity, and I remember how she would go days without even looking at me. It hurts a lot.

I’m scared of death. But I want to kill myself. But I’m not afraid to do it. I don’t want it to hurt when I do. I jst can’t leave my boyfriend alone, I don’t want him to be with another women, that is what hurts me the most.

Embarrassingly friendzoned a guy for at least three times and still wouldn't stop!!! Sometimes I want to peel off my skin out of disgust that I hugged him a bunch of times thinking he was just a friend and that he would pull my head to his shoulders and I would agree meeting up with him one on one and flirt on chat with my stupid ass thinking he sees us as just a friend. I regret ever comforting him boosting his ego opening up to him and getting close not expecting months later he will be entitled to my entire being. I couldn't even imagine dating someone new without him victimizing himself. But goodluck he’s a leech around me no matter how hard I try to distance myself in the campus and people still think we’re dating. That man has also mirrored my hobbies and favorite things and places that I don't even enjoy those anymore, and now I keep my interests private cuz he’ll copy it it’s disgusting. I still have to see his face daily at the campus and pretend nothing's wrong.

Daniel silver is a zionist Stuff he says to Anne=bullshit He is lying about + hidin his extreme political views check his facebook He has brainwashed Annie my adopted mother into thinking he is kind man Who IS not radical Jew but he is actually a hotheaded radical Jew underneath #Zionist #FakeLiberal #98112 #Seattle #Portugal #AnneKimball #JewSpy I would die to prove i am tellin the truth man! look at Daniel Silver's fucking Facebook he wanted mayor of New York to join palestinas in tunnels so the IDF could kill them what Monster he is! #exposefucket

My boyfriend and I just celebrate our one year anniversary. The day after I caught him secretly recording random women in walmart by pretending to be on the phone. When I found the videos in the car he fought me for his phone while he was driving and I dropped it in the backseat. When I asked him to pull over so I could get it, I went to open the back door and while I was still holding on he sped off with me still attached. When I fell I hurt my left hand and right arm. I lied to the hospital about what happened, and everyone else. He made me cut off everyone in my life. I have nobody to tell.

So I have been wanting to wear this one shirt and this one pair of pants on my UGGs for like ever it’s the third day school. My school pictures are tomorrow and I was talking to my friend about what I was gonna wear for picture day on the first day of school and she walks up to me today cause I guess picture day is Thursday and Friday and she has the exact outfit on except her Hollister shirt is slightly different different colored UGGs and the same pair of pants that I have and I’ve been wearing, so I’m just really frustrated. I want to wear this outfit for tomorrow, but I am not going to cause people are gonna think I’m copying her and like it’s just really annoying.

I've been really really sad recently and I just dont know why anymore I should feel happy i mean I jave friends even if all of them are online minus one, I have a stable family who are very financially well and they treat me nice and I'm okay-ish at art I guess. I just dont get it no matter what I do i always feel sad I try so hard to make myself feel happy and I should cuz i've been trying to get better especially in School and hell when I start School again I'm planning on stopping a lot of the bad habits I was doing and stop masking my emotions and bottling shit up all the time and even cutting off bad people and i've moved on from past relationships that never worked out and I'm figuring out myself like the fact im Pansexual even tho my parents might not support it and that im Agnostic too but I still feel sad i dont know how to stop it I cant stop it I want it to stop so badly i've been trying everything i just want it too end i want to feel better.

Heyy everyone how are you how ur day mwah mwah

being bipolar and depressive does not give you a reason to be a bitch. it gives you a reason for your moods and feelings. it is a reason. it is a cause. but under no circumstance should you be a bitch. you may have bitchy moments when you snap. but if you are a bitch, dont blame it on that. you can choose one thing in the world and that is kindness.

scars are so cool. I LOVEE SCARS, not the reason they are there of course, but i find them so cool. from acne to burn scars. LIKE IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT

is being bipolar and depressive give you a reason to be a bitch? (not me, sm else ik. also pls reply by making another rant?? thanks)