All Rants

hey so something I recognize is that I fantasize abt a stalker. Ik a lot of ppl do but like I really fantasize one like it’s insane. what’s even crazier is that I have one, but it’s my ex gf and like she’s slowly ruining my life…um yeah. like idrc about that bc I just don’t I guess?? I mean now I guess that just made me more into men than women. anyway I have had a couple instances where even if they were slightly similar stalker behaviors (male) I would be scared SHITLESS. so yeah that made me realize I’d rather have an admirer or keep it in fiction. I think I’m too ugly for it idk but yeah! my ex is pretty insane tho and it’s been getting worse so time for me to start caring. I don’t think she wants to get back together, but it’s more out of envy or jealousy or something

i dont know if this is just me, but sometimes when he texts me, i feel like hes mad. often its just a slight change in the normal vibe, or his tone shifted. idk if that makes sense, but i always overthink the worst. idk if this is caused from past experiences, but idk what to do. ive asked his multiple occasions if hes mad, and he never is, just tired, but i cant help but worry. this is not his fault, but this cant just be me right? surely someone else feels this way too. what can i do? how can i stop this feeling? someone please help. its eating me alive.

guys, i'm so so so so sorry...but i have the urge to self-harm again...i'm sorry...

I once opened up to a social worker about my self-esteem issues. She said something simplistic (because what the hell could you say) along the lines of "You have a very big brain and a very big imagination". Ever since that day, my dad has used it sarcastically and disparagingly to mock me. There's nothing I can do about it. I've confronted him multiple times, I've involved distant relatives (where I tried to run away from home, but everyone is just as fucked up in my family, if not worse). The modern factory, the modern Oedipal structures, the modern silmacrum, the dead god and the corpse of media, all tell me how it's my fault. The patriarchy tells me how I should stop being "delusional" and "entitled" and respect his sacrifice. Even if I knew no better, I can't. I hate my family.

Posting lyrics on here is getting annoying and repetitive. Please just rant that you wanna SH or are depressed. But its nice reading them. So please also put it in a poem. Just very boring and repetitive when its about the SAME SONG

If I had any passions as a child, my parents would squash them. My dad would've just made fun of me for even trying. He's so jealous when he sees me reading up on philosophy and classic theatre, but he could just squash my art by saying it amounts to scribblings that aren't about anything. That my poetry doesn't rhyme.

Such a jealous family, where every generation has consciously worked to sabotage the one under it.

My dad constantly hammers down the belief that I'm just as useless and foolish as him.

My cousin has been on a call with this guy she met online for 4 whole days now, even sleeping on call. Mind you both of us share a room. She is 13 talking to a guy who is 15 and def does not sound 15. He is rude, controlling and refuses to let her do anything. And when I try to talk to my cousin I cant even say what I want because they are always on call, they stay up all night being loud and when I tried to tell her mom how I don't like this whole situation, she brought her into the room (was not in any trouble) and tried to talk to her about it and flatline just lied. I do not like his vibe and my cousin is acting way older then she is, she is talking to him weird and she refuses to listen when I tell her this guy is not right. Am I being dramatic or??

I think i just experienced antisemitism for the first time and i’m not even jewish

There are people on the left and people on the right who participate in cancel culture. They are just cancelling different people and different things. And there's hypocrisy on both sides. Lots of right wingers complain about cancel culture and then absolutely hound someone who made a mistake or even just someone they don't agree with. Lots of left wingers call out this harassment from the right even though they do it themselves, usually to female celebrities who are also human beings. But also I am a hypocrite because I want to hound the people who bullied me at school until they can't take it anymore and cancel themselves. But then they're not sorry. And lets face it I'm never gonna be brave enough to do it.

Funny how all the people on Facebook who still have their "stay at home, save lives" frames on their profile pictures have absolutely not been staying home since March 2020. One look on their profiles show recent photos of them clearly not at home. Hypocrites. So you want me to not leave the house for over 6 years while you do whatever you want? Who are you, Boris Johnson?

I feel like I can't be adult. I'm 18 but I was under hyper control all my life, I'm not responsible at all

She’s the most peaceful, patient, kind and gentlest girl I’ve ever met and she’s a natural beaut like she wears no makeup, she’s a one in a billion, I don’t know what I’ll do if she rejects me, I won’t be able to function, yeah, I just don’t know what to do😔

Im starting to fucking hate John Rod. Its all my boyfriend ever talks about and he even cancelled out wedding since I called him out on the over consumption of paper clips just to make John Rod. I genuinely believe he loves John Rod more and I plan to kill myself just to prove that he only loves online trends more than me. Fuck the person who created John Rod and fuck my boyfriend. I really wanted the wedding to happen, and it was very embarrassing to tell my family members a different reason on why the wedding was cancelled other than "Sorry, me and him had a fight about his habits and how unhealthy it was and he got mad" without it sounding toxic, which it already is. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod. Fuck John Rod.

Istg if someone calls me racist for complaining about the people setting off fireworks the other night I'm gonna scream. Most people wouldn't have known it was a Muslim household setting them off for a wedding, we all just heard bangs while scrolling through Facebook posts about nearby wildfires. Race or religion makes no difference, a spark is a spark and when it's this dry it can turn into a raging destructive fire. I was genuinely scared, my cats run and hide from fireworks so it would be really difficult to get them out if the house caught fire. Definitely not mentioning anything to my sister about it because she'll definitely call me racist, she's one of those whites. Like the ones who pulled the racist card when people complained about the plan for an ugly Mosque, despite the fact that people also complained about the ugly library and didn't complain about the pretty Mosques (sorry but this city has beautiful architecture and doesn't need a metal polygon ruining it)

People will moan about mentally or cognitively disabled people not having jobs, and then complain about "incompetent" (imperfect) workers. You wanted us to work even though our brains don't work properly, this is what you get.

does anyone else js grab their cart and js keep on hitting it while reading all the venting messages?

Some horrible person who doesn't deserve too be called human and doesn't deserve life responded to every innocent comment in a harmless post and made their own comment calling people horrible allegations pedo sl(I don't wanna say it) with gifs or smth of CAT GORE SO NOW I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT IN MY BRAIN AND ITS HORRIBLE and of COURSE ITS A UTTP ALSO DID I FORGET SWAT THREATS? LIKE SAYING 50 MEMETIC IR SMTH OFFICERS TO YOUR HOUSE HORRIBLE PEOPLE I,WANT THEM TO JUST JAIL ANIMAL ABUSE IS A CRIME AND THOSE CATS WERENT DEAD YET they deserve NOTHING but the darkest pits of hell I hope sending gore is a crime so they go to jail and nether get out

my wife fucking infuriates me. to preface this while she is depressed she's on medication and in therapy and her therapist is telling her to take more initiative but she genuinely refuses to try. she never does anything doesn't work and constantly berates me for spending money on myself but will drop MY MONEY on things for her in a heartbeat. she sleeps soundly while i keep our lives together daily im doing housework shopping and shes comfortably in bed. im constantly having to put myself in bad situations for her and she doesn't care unwilling to sacrifice anything for herself if i ask her to put in a job application she yells at me because its too overwhelming and it's been months. i had a close relative die recently and couldnt grieve because the news made her so sad FOR A PERSON SHE MET EXACTLY ONCE i spent hours comforting her because it was too much for her then she couldn't deal with me being upset without spiralling until i helped soothe her. what do you even do.