All Rants

My family sucks, I live with my abusive mother, grandpa and amazing yet SO annoying little sister. I have absolutely zero love life and only one friend that I barely talk to because she’s busy with other people or school but now when we do talk I just feel so low and awkward and hurt that I fuck it up and don’t put nearly enough effort into it. I know when or if I finally move out I will be all alone and I don’t know what I’ll do with my life. I’m just so tired.

Am i the only one that feels like their entire life is just built on trying to be better than everyone else? I don't do it for bragging rights i just do it to assure myself that i actually deserve a space in this world. Yet there's always someone out there that will always be better than me. I don't know how to explain it and I know it sounds really stupid. But I'm just tired of always having to be practicing or learning something. Why can't I just exist without trying to one up someone else?

["Stop writing all this as poems". Take your fucking life yourself. You have no right to tell us what we should and shouldn't write. Just do it. Not everything amounts to just "I'm depressed or wanna SH that's just your retoddid fantasy of what it should look like. Here's some actual life, get a rope yourself.] There is a word for people like you. Have you not read what I wrote? I said to CONTINUE writing it as a poem, just not in the bland way of one song every time. It can be, "Sometimes cutting is smoother than butter, though, I'd never show my mother. She'd say I'm useless, so then I know I'm not ready to do this" Creativity can still work, but its always a song and thats what I'm saying it is. Telling me to kill myself because you didnt read the full thing just shows why doomscrolling fries your brain. Basically what I said was Dont write it as some repetitive song or peom everywhere, make it yourself or mix the words up. Genuinely hope you find tutoring...

Folding in bc that bih posts herself wailing like an attention seeker getting drunk n clubbing around like a hor3 xDDD

Bitch Mikasa Whore ass bitch Shameless pervert who thrives on multiple girls noods Ky$ fucker

Yes, it PMO I risked my shame and dignity for you and you go around sexualising her like a mad dog? Shameless piece of sht

i want my brother back even if I was happy when he killed himself i really want him back now i want him back i want

I’ll kill that bitch clementine if she sexualises that disgusting whore FUCKING NACHOS I WILL KILL YOU IF YOU SEXUALISE HER

thinking about my life, realizing that people don't want me at all

Some people need to learn to shut the fuck up, if they don’t I will help them.

FUCKER I WILL CURSE THE HECK OUT OF YOU IF YOU TALK ABOUT HER TITS

IT DISGUSTS ME THAT I HAD TO FLASH YOU PLENTY OF TIMES AND SHE DOES IT ONCE UOU FUCKINH ACT LIKE YOU NEVER SEEN ANY MONSTROUS PIECE OF SHIT YOU WILL DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH

ILL CURSE YOU AND THAT BITCH HORRIBLY ILL SMASH BOTH OF YOUR HEADS TILL NONE OF YOUR FAM CAN RECOGNISE YOU FUCKINH ASSHOLE ASLWAYS SEXUALISING THAT UGLY HORE

IT FUCKIN DISGUSTS ME YOU LITERALLY GET NUDES FROM RANDOM GIRLS WHILE THEY SUFFER. FUCKING MONSTER FUCK OFF MIKASA FUCK ALL YOUR PRIVS AND WORDLE PORN YOU BOTH WILL DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH EVERYTIME YOU SEXT EACH OTHER

I HAVE BIGGER VERY HUGGGGEEEE HERS ARE UGLYYY

You’ve seen my tits 100 times and you still think hers are better? Blind mf go pour molten lava on to your face

Why tf you’re sexualising that ugly bicycle seat face bih when ur supposed to sexualise me fucker Ugly fuckers Go ky$ in a gutter both of you

I have bigger tits than her fucking pervert but your dick is so smol your mum should khs

hey so something I recognize is that I fantasize abt a stalker. Ik a lot of ppl do but like I really fantasize one like it’s insane. what’s even crazier is that I have one, but it’s my ex gf and like she’s slowly ruining my life…um yeah. like idrc about that bc I just don’t I guess?? I mean now I guess that just made me more into men than women. anyway I have had a couple instances where even if they were slightly similar stalker behaviors (male) I would be scared SHITLESS. so yeah that made me realize I’d rather have an admirer or keep it in fiction. I think I’m too ugly for it idk but yeah! my ex is pretty insane tho and it’s been getting worse so time for me to start caring. I don’t think she wants to get back together, but it’s more out of envy or jealousy or something

i dont know if this is just me, but sometimes when he texts me, i feel like hes mad. often its just a slight change in the normal vibe, or his tone shifted. idk if that makes sense, but i always overthink the worst. idk if this is caused from past experiences, but idk what to do. ive asked his multiple occasions if hes mad, and he never is, just tired, but i cant help but worry. this is not his fault, but this cant just be me right? surely someone else feels this way too. what can i do? how can i stop this feeling? someone please help. its eating me alive.