All Rants

I am undatable. Ugly, no money and I will die alone. This is the fate I have accepted

i feel like everyday im judged by my mother no matter what i do its never enough and she says i always get what i want (not true by the way in anyway ive even asked my siblings and they said no you barely get anything you ask for) almost like im being mentally abused just being brought down- and it sucks dude- i cant even dress as i please like bro- i just want one thing for myself- she makes me feel like im not enough and not smart and its hard- its just hard-

Feeling so tired of being invalidated as a black Lesbian and nonbinary person

What's a small thing that happened this week that's been bothering you more than it should? PEOPLE. As soon as I come out of my comfort zone, home, my bubble someone has to POP it. Its not until I leave to interact w/ people that I want to immediately go back into my comforts. Its not a sort of POP that O i feel uncomfortable its a POP that I feel FUCKEN IRRITATED now. I am not the one to be irritated easily either. Its being pushed on the bus, or someone budding in line for the bus when u CLEARLY have waited longer. Human decency is out the window..

What's something that happened today that made you question everything? When u do well in something being critiqued/evaluated and ppl dislike u for it. It makes me so mad that ppl try to look for the downfalls b/c they are not doing as well in something u both are doing. No one celebrates ppls successes anymore if it has nothing to do with them. You can do so well in something but if they arent doing well then ur the enemy even if u doing well in it doesnt have anything to do with them not doing well in it... has anyone seen the movie Bologna yet? SPOILER ALERT at the end Michelle goes back to her spaceship and pops the firmament bubble on earth and kills everyone on earth.. yea I wish it was just certain ppl.. .. or when ppl say "she/he thinks they are better than me" so what.. do YOU think ur better than them and thats the problem? Or is it because you think that them carrying themselves questions how u carry urself b/c it isnt good enough? wtf is with that b/c did she/he SAY THAT??

I fucken hate so many ppl. No I dont mean the random stranger walking by. Not in a petty way but reasons that they did me wrong for trying to help, or being apart of their life. So many times I try to act out of kindness being open then it gets thrown in my face for no reason. I am so misunderstood, used and abused for trying to be nice. It makes me loathe ppl. I dont want to have any part of relationships b/c they will try to use it or find something to take. Some kind of ulterior motive for getting to know me. Everything is so sexualized, it disgusts me I dont feel like other ppl I feel alienated from the rest. It makes me so fucken mad when I there is someone that EVERYBODY likes and they are the biggest POS ever. It makes me want to fucken bash their heads in with a hammer.

Is it bad I can't move on from a 3 month situationship?

i want to kick the chair but im too scared to do it, its just a rope, all i have to do is kick a chair. why am i so scared? its not like i have anything to leave behind. i havent accomplished anything in my life so far so why am i so scared? is it my family? is it my friends? or maybe its because i dont have a good enough reason to do it, or because im still a minor.

i love my bf so much, but i need a break. i just feel like im not able to reach my full potential when im with him and thats not because hes not supportive or he holds me back, im just not a relationship person. i also might be leaving the city for college soon and i really dont wanna do long distance with him because im gonna regret it and i also dont have enough trust in myself. but i could also never breakup with him beasue hes always talkig about our future together and i mean like marriage, kids, growing old, traveling and it just upsets me because i also know i cant marry him because hes not the guy i had in mind. and my mom wont let me marry him or anyone if theyre not in our culture and i agree with that completley. also recently, he just hasnt been like a real man. like hes too chalant and lovey dovey i just wanna argue so much so that we have a reason to break up. like it sounds awful but i need a way out soon but id ont know how or what that is?. any advice? should i stay?

Ok so i cheated on my bf with this guy. and basically he was the one who initiated everything like4 months ago and he always picks me up and we go on drives and hookup. i always talk to him ata school and he always says hi to me. the last time we hung out he picked me up and we went ton a drive and then ssat in the car for hours talkking and listening and singing to music together. it was honestly weirdly romantic. we hooked up then he got me food and dropped me off at home. he said we were gonna hang out a bunch cause it was christmas break, but we only saw eachopter that one time. we go back to school anbd i dont see him for the first week and then the second week i saw him and he ignored me the first time we saw eachother altho im not 100% sure he saw me. and then that same morning he saw me and smiled at me and said hi. and then like three days later he posts on isntagram and i like the post and when i go chevk snap he literslly BLOCKED me not just unadded and only on snap! why?

I don't know if I'm delusional or not but I feel like I'm being thrown aside. I've gone to realize my friends never hang out with me no matter how hard I try and always doing things with other people. I hate myself, it's cause of how I act but it's my personality. They prefer people they've met a few days ago over me, maybe I should just break it up. But I can't get myself to do it and they're the only friends I have.

At my lowest right now since I don’t have anyone I can actually talk to. My partner does not get me. Have to wait 3 hours to pick up a family member without any explanation for the wait time. When I started to feel hunger and order my first meal of the day 1 hour before the store close. They confirm my order and then call to cancel my order last minute saying that they are closed.

I am so afraid I might not be able to hit my sale, but I believe I will and I will do my best to achieve it! Super worried but I will get it Lord.

friend drama. its really making me mad

I wish I could just erase my existence from this world. No trace of me left behind, no one to remember me, nothing. Or maybe, I just wish I hadn’t been born at all. I would never actually end it - I am far too scared to die, and the thought of dying alone makes me anxious…nor would I want to put my loved ones through all the shit my death would cause. I’m just so tired. I’m tired of everything. It’s not like I haven’t been trying to change - I go to the gym, do yoga, go to therapy, take all my medication on time. My favorite part of the day is when I can go to my quiet room at night and lay in bed, where no one expects anything from me. No deadlines, no obligations, no demands, no bills, no problems or expectations. But then in the morning everything starts all over again. It is never going to end, and I’m never going to feel happy again.

My life sucks and i don't have any reason to live

I love my partner, and I know they love me too. But loving someone doesn’t automatically make the relationship healthy. Sometimes their behavior feels toxic. They can be rude or dismissive, and when that happens, what hurts most is that my feelings come second to theirs. Instead of reflecting on how they affect me, they focus on justifying their actions. We disagree on many personal things—how I dress, how I do my makeup, and who I spend time with, especially friends of the opposite gender. These things matter to me. I don’t want to give up what makes me happy just to keep them comfortable. When I stand my ground, they see it as disrespect, even though it’s simply me choosing myself. I understand feeling uncomfortable, but that doesn’t give them the right to control me or be angry at me for living my life. This is my body, my choices, and my headspace. Ive been upset any cryiung alot lately and they dont seem to care. its become a "norm" for me to cry. They js got used to it ig.

I feel like I don't fit anywhere. Is this a joke?!

i cant find a reason good enough to leave my relationship. its not awful just not brill. and i really think they could do better too. ideas?

im needing ranting for time with my girlfired was bad . Here india, it isnt bad to be bold.