All Rants

My crush made out with another girl and we were not even close to dating but it crushed my soul.am i being dramatic or are my feelings valid

I think I'm falling. It should hurt, but i feel comforted.

Grief,tonight,a month ago,was the last time i ever spoke to her

I’m so tired of work. I’m tired and exhausted from this stupid 9-5… just. The constant never ending loop. I finish work and think about work. I try to remind myself it’s not that deep, that it’s just work, but I’m still worrying about that stupid report or that one thing I got wrong. I don’t care!! I don’t care anymore this is so pointless all of it, what am I even doing? What am I working for? I pay bills and I eat and I clean this stupid house and work and I sleep and I do it again the next day and I continue to do so till I die and I’ll die only knowing work and these stupid fucking spreadsheets and these never ending issues… I’m so tired I can’t be bothered to do anything. I can’t be bothered. I don’t even hate it I just don’t care! 10 years I gave this stupid place and for what? I’ve wasted my life at this place for nothing. no important life lessons, just this false sense of what adulthood is like and it’s worthless and fake & I hate it here… but I still gotta go back tomorrow…

What's something you need to express but don't know how to label it? To be honest its like moments of random despair i don't know why i get in those moods . Also whe stressful things happen i just shutdown i try not to engage in it as of right now im tired mentally drained and energy is very low

I've been feeling completely drained mentally and with my situation even if I'm trying to stay positive. I know I'm not the only person dealing with trials as well i just feel tired you know... I know having a job doesn't really solve anything but I've been self reflecting on things people said and done to me allot so alot of self reflection

I KEEP GETTING HIGH PLACE IN ROBUX GIVEAWAY GAME BUT NEVER WON ONCE LIKE BRO I GOT 2nd place in 500 giveaway 16th in 1000 give away 14th in 1500 giveaway 2nd in 100 giveaway WHEN THE HECK AM I GONNA WIN IM TIRED I PLAYED SO MANY TIME I GOT TOP 5 THREE TIME IN A ROW I KEPT DYING TO THE SAME GAME I SO FREAKING MAD DUDE LIKE I JUST WANNA WIN ONCE WHEN I TRY PLS DONATE NO ONE DONATE FOR ME AND SOMEONE DONATE 10K INFRONT OF ME 2 TIMES LIKE IF YOU HAVE SO MUCH MONEY WHY DONT DONATE TO OTHER PEOPLE TOO HUHUHUHU. ANYWAYS IF THE OWNER READING THIS IM JUST PISSED OKAY ITS 1 AM AND I GOT 2ND PLACE IN A 2 HOUR GAME LIKE CMON MAN ANYWAYS I FEEL ALOT CALMER NOW W PLACE

so, I'm 15, I'm transgender (girl to a boy) I go by he/him pronouns and I go by Adam, my mom does not respect it at all, she always calls me a girl and tells me that I am a follower because one of my friends is trans, but no, I've felt this way for years and she never listens to me. she doesn't care. she says I am her daughter, and that I am not allowed to be trans. idk what to do.

I feel so lost right now. I'm 16 and I'm halfway through grade 10. but I don't know what I to do, to be, what to study for college. Whenever I told anyone my worries, they kept telling me I'm young, I'll figure it out soon. NO, I WON'T. I know I'm young but hear me out. I'm doing so bad in school like literally I don't even know basic knowledge. I felt so dumb, so fucking ugly and so bad. I tried to improve myself but I just can't. I've noticed that I'm struggling mentally since I was 14. I feel like mental health is gonna be the cause of my death. Sooner or later. I want to do it but I want to look pretty first, that way my funeral's picture won't be bad. I have very low self-esteem. I've been wearing mask my whole life since covid-19 and it's killing me. I want to take it off so bad but my insecurities got in the way. I feel so dramatic and pathetic writing this right now. I'm probably going to feel embarrassed and regret it later for writing this. Thank you if you've made it.

So, i got into a huge argument with one of my friends, I wont say her name for privacy reasons, I was calling her out for her problems like how she copy's me, I told her I had bad anxiety (diagnosed) and then she said she had severe anxiety, she called me a h03 and turned all of my friends against me, I am alone at school now, I have no friends, my birthday is coming up APR 25 and I don't have anyone to celebrate it with, I dont know what is wrong with me, but I always cause drama and I never have friends anymore. at all. I honestly lost all hope for anything when I was 13 which was not okay? I don't know what to do anymore.

college is a fucking scam. there's no fucking reason i should have to pay $1200 of money that i don't have as a 19 year old trying to balance helping my parents out financially and paying them rent at the same time because the college decided to refund the $1100 i had already paid due to their own mistake. i can't access the refunded money of course, since a refund that large can't go through that quickly, and with admission having started yesterday it just feels hopeless. i can't even as much as ask the financial aid office for guidance because i get an automated response saying that they're busy and unable to reach out at the time, which is total bullshit. if you are going to play with students' finances and their literal futures, you should have enough people and time and should have done enough preparation to attend to said students' needs. i've worked so hard to get to where i am and to think that it would be taken because of something i can't control makes me feel hopeless.

Isn’t it weird not speaking to my cousins in years i messaged him that i haven't seen him in three years but he'll love to see me for coffee on Saturday!

im genuinely scared of venting to my friends rn. There are 5 people in total (including me) and we have a separate group without one friend, Y. Me an Y don't get along at all, i can't stop thinking about past arguments and all of the others are good friends with Y. Im scared of getting judged or anything

i dont know what i want to do with my life, i want to quit my degree but im almost done, only three more months to go, but i dont see myself working in this area and it is taking a huge toll on my mental health just having to go to my internship everyday. i am so unhappy but i dont have a plan b, i have no ambitions or passions so im just completely lost. i have a couple friends, no boyfriend, my family is always disappointed in me, i feel useless and worthless. im not alive for myself, i am simply living for my friends and family. plus therapy is expensive (im on sertraline)

sometimes i wish i could k!ll people and get away with it. i dont know why i always think of these things i have never done it and i know i will never because i dont want to hurt anyone and go to jail but idk why i keep having these thoughts can someone help? am i crazy

i feel like im going to lose my mind

im actually going to die bru i was literally just trying to go out of my class to talk to my math teacher about doing my task and this bum ahh 2nd teacher for the class before math kept asking dumb questions i literally told her i wanted to go and ask my math teacher whose class is ACROSS the 2nd teachers class and she asked why? and why i couldnt tell my math teacher on Thursday. maybe because Thursday was 4 days ago and i wasnt ready to do my math task are you dumb? bru get a grip and she also doesnt even teach whats the point of being a teacher if you dont teach might aswell quit! school would be better if she quit bru. AND when i went to math teachers room he wasnt even there it was a sub teacher BROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO otw to kms

I have literally nothing. But I say this is a self aware way. I know better, I have a roof over my head, and food in my stomach, but a lonely life. My father is in jail, my mother, a psyche ward, my brothers homeless, and my sister,,, the outlier who had to leave to be the best she could be in her own place with her own family. I'm so, alone. The family build on trauma bonds that I grew up with, won't be there at my graduation that I will never have since I haven't left my house for classes for a year and a half. I'm so useless and lonely, and ugly, fat, and stupid. I have no redeeming qualities, and feel like a fraud online where I don't need to show my face. It just makes it so hard to choose not to self destruct even more.

i feel sad because i dont know anymore what im doing with my life i kept on working hard day by day but the people here or my support system keep showing signs of wanting to die and hating their life too. its frustrating that the very person whom you should make as fuel to do good in everything are slowly breaking apart. i hated the fact that i have to deal with this dysfunctional family its a burning house everyone are not realy connected i cannot even call it home. i plan on running away with everything and if i cant run i rather end it. now i have an exam even if i have a heavy heart and cant focus i dont have a choice but to force myself and set aside every feelings like bottle them up. i wish life was a little bit gentle to me and it wont make me suffer this much. i wish everything would just end and i wont have to go to school with a mask trying to make myself stay cool about everything even if its breaking me.

I'm closeted bisexual and bigender because I have homphobic parents and I have an ex because our parents found out about us and they discourage dating at my age but I want to be with him again but he put me in the friend zone and I have depression and I just want to die but I can't because my friend says she'll kill herself if I do so and I'm scared about what'll happen if I kms, I don't have privacy, I don't even have my own device. I don't have any source of happiness. Maybe temporary sources are my friends and my friends are like my world. I'm scared of talking to people but I want to. I'm scared people will judge me and I hate everything about myself. I think I have body dysmorphia but don't know.