All Rants

I swear no one wants me and I don’t know why I keep going because my mom done left and my da doesn’t like me my brother told me to die and so did my ex best friend and every guy I date dont even want me he just freaking uses me and Im tired of saying Im fine to everyone and Im not Im really not like I think about end in my life every day but never do because no one would care either way so why seek for more attention if Im still not gon get it and oh my gosh the expectations like you expect me to be fine all the time when I’m literally dying inside.

how do i convince my mother that my suicidal thoughts aren't from my medication. that ive had them since i was 13. i started meds when i was 17. im 22 now.

I'm so envious of people. Not only of the good everybody has. Their new electronics, their new clothes,,, the care they receive for existing. No, not just the good things. I, want to make my problems, real. I want them to be the real issues people see, so that the reason I suck, makes sense, and matters. I never got the confidence to hurt myself, so there's only a small nick on my thumb to show for it. Excusable. I was going through hell in that messy and cluttered room, food stuck to my carpets, hair matted, and all I have to show is some measily nick on my finger. It's so unfair how all those mental issues I was out through, didn't make any meaningful mark, so now, I have to struggle through like like nothing happened, expected to well, get a life. It's so unfair. I have nothing to fall on, I'm poor, ugly, fat, and my family is gone. And yet I will still go recycle bottles tomorrow for a few extra bucks like nothing is wrong. Life isn't fair.

I just want to feel like I matter to someone. Ever since I deleted my Instagram, it’s like I don’t exist to them anymore. I don’t even know why I thought stepping away would help, maybe I just needed a break from everything. I keep hoping someone will notice, just show that they remember me, but every day that passes makes me feel smaller, like I’m just fading out of their world while they go on with theirs. No one’s reached out, not a single person and I keep wondering if I ever even meant anything to them, like they don’t even care that we stopped talking, it hurts, it really hurts, feeling like I’m already forgotten while I’m still here, still trying to hold myself together. I just wanted someone to care… to tell me they still think about me but maybe they never did after all.

i miss everyone. so many "friends" but none of them actually talk to me

I messed up REAL bad. So I had a boyfriend lets call him D and I loved him so so so much we were together for 2 months and we've know eachother since november 2025. before I met him I met this one dude lets call him P and him and I played roblox together mostly all the time but then I started dating D and we grew apart. Recently I met this one dude lets call him S now S and I met on roblox mic up the same place I met both D and P. I introduced S and P together and their nice friends. The 3 of us have a discord gc together and we play and talk all the time and we started flirting. Then D found out I was cheating on him and broke up with me/blocked me but the reason he found out is because S told me along with a girl who was a pick me and S also blocked me. P stayed but today he blocked me on everything and I know I messed up and I should feel bad for what I did but I for some reason only feel loved if I send nudes or flirt with someone. I hate the way I am. I was cheated on and now im 1

Currently have a cold, feeling pretty useless. Still in school so it makes me feel even worse when I have to skip days and ask my friends for what we did. Obviously, I am not getting sick on purpose and I do try to work hard at school work, but missing one day makes me want to miss more, but I also don't want to bother my friends every time. Also took on an internship so I feel the need to be there every week. Just imagining the workload I missed makes me nauseous. I don't mean to be emotional but I can't help but cry, even when I'm mad and not necessarily sad. I can't help but think about how my teachers will react when I do go back to school. this rant is all over the place, www. Sometimes I just wish someone would ask me if I'm doing well on a random, normal Monday.

im genuinely so fat its not even funny. Im getting into my eating disorder again after escaping it, but now im eating so much and im fat again and i look pregnant while all the girls in my grade are so skinny and dont need to stop eating. they can just eat a whole bag of takis and it never catches up with them.

im genuinely just burning out and i dont know why. ive gotten out of depression once before, and sometimes it comes flickering back and I have some sad days. but lately it wont go away again. I have tons of missing assignments, im cutting myself again, and my eating disorder is coming back. Im burning out in classes in used to be one of the best in and now i can barely bring myself to pick up whatever i need for that class and work. i cant let myself fail again but i also dont have the energy to try. I have so much passion for figure skating but im a fuckass akaward fresh teen and my balance is off, literal passion but no talent. im also kinda ok at drawing, but i feel like other people my age do so good with art without trying and im over here struggling to draw literally everything. its almost talent but no passion, but i feel like i have no talent but i know i can draw kinda good, and i just wanna be okay with myself.

So I met this guy in middle school, a grade above me. We got super close over the summer and I had a huge crush on him. I thought everything was going fine. I ended up getting a different boyfriend. But I got cheated on. I have no hard feelings towards the girl whatsoever because she didn’t have a clue and she’s actually such a sweet girl. But I told my best friend, aka the guy that I had a crush on, about the situation. He ended up texting her over socials and they started to get close because of me. I wasn’t over him. Everything was going amazing with him and me and him would talk nearly daily. He promised me that he wouldn’t date her. He did. Now, he’s super distant, never wants to call (he used to call me every night) and he never texts me first. What did I do wrong? What’s wrong with me? I don’t even have a crush on him anymore but I just want our friendship back. I can’t even get that. I just miss us. I don’t know what to do without him.

Im in love with my boyfriend and hes really such an amazing guy. Except for the fact hes sexually assaulted me on more than one occasion. And I dont have anyone to talk to about it because all of my friends adore my boyfriend. He also loves to tell people about our sex life even though ive stated multiple times im uncomfortable with it. But he truly is a nice guy other than that. Even my family likes him and thats not an easy feat because my family hates everyone (even me tbh) so I feel like if I tell anyone nobody will believe me and I'll lose all my friends.

I bought a very expensive dress and I felt so pretty in it I even curled my hair and wore heels but when I went to dinner with my family my mom and sister made fun of it and me until I stormed off crying and suddenly it was my fault because I don't spend enough time with my mom??? I've been crying since I stormed off I don't normally feel pretty or confident and now I just feel like shit and like no matter what I do they will always find a way to make me the butt of the joke I have never felt more ugly than when I was sitting in that chair

My family makes me feel alone and has worsen my mental health problems. Even though they know I'm struggling they still don't help. Every time we go out as a family they ruin it for me and say I always have an attitude even though it's their fault. They also put so much stress on my. My mom treats me like shit compared to my siblings and likes to throw shade on me whenever she can. For example, today I said i feel like I would be the type of college kid to be into my studies and my mother choice to say "oh you aren't I already know." That ruined my mood to talk to her and she asks why I talk to strangers instead of her. She's ALWAYS so negative to me. I feel like I'm never heard or I'm pushed aside and I have no one. My mom has told me I make her so mad to the point she wants to kill me. I'vw had thoughts of calling CPS multiple times.

Im so fucking fat I'm 13 5'4" and I'm a whopping 111 lbs I've gained like 8 lbs in the past two moths and I'm struggling so much with binging rn I hate my body so much :(

i’m in highschool and in a couple days we have to do group presentations for a specific class. i don’t have anyone in that class let alone any class and don’t want to work with anybody, so i’m working alone. it’s just another project that’s totally burdening me right now. i’m terrified for the presentation. half of the people in my class are horrible. they’re just so mean and i’m so scared that i’m going to do terribly or run out of time. i have pretty bad social anxiety disorder and have had it most of my life so it’s not exactly easy to simply ignore. i know i’m going to trip over my words and my face will turn red and there’s nothing i can do about that even if i practice. it’s hardwired into me at this point and i hate that i will have to conciously manage/deal with it for the rest of my life even though it’s difficult. i’m going to need to dedicate my entire afternoon to the presentation if i want any hope of the best case scenario

I just dont feel any motivation anymore it gets harder and harder to carry everyone's burdens including my own I miss my dad and its all to much Its hard to even say it out loud

My crush made out with another girl and we were not even close to dating but it crushed my soul.am i being dramatic or are my feelings valid

I think I'm falling. It should hurt, but i feel comforted.

Grief,tonight,a month ago,was the last time i ever spoke to her

I’m so tired of work. I’m tired and exhausted from this stupid 9-5… just. The constant never ending loop. I finish work and think about work. I try to remind myself it’s not that deep, that it’s just work, but I’m still worrying about that stupid report or that one thing I got wrong. I don’t care!! I don’t care anymore this is so pointless all of it, what am I even doing? What am I working for? I pay bills and I eat and I clean this stupid house and work and I sleep and I do it again the next day and I continue to do so till I die and I’ll die only knowing work and these stupid fucking spreadsheets and these never ending issues… I’m so tired I can’t be bothered to do anything. I can’t be bothered. I don’t even hate it I just don’t care! 10 years I gave this stupid place and for what? I’ve wasted my life at this place for nothing. no important life lessons, just this false sense of what adulthood is like and it’s worthless and fake & I hate it here… but I still gotta go back tomorrow…