All Rants

Why does a lotta society think that men in feminine clothing is bad but women in masc clothes is good?? And those same people stand for “gender equaliry”, like hello?? if we just change the genders for an example, it’d sound SO like yk, saying “boys shouldn’t wear skirts/dresses” is the same as saying “girls shouldn’t wear pants/suits” but in the opposite gender, or smth like that? Why, society??

i would rather die than be with my mom who always vent her anger in me for the stupidest shit she made

My mum a lot of the time just sits in her chair and has a hand to her temple/sighing lots in a way I know shes upset, worried or usually grumpy. She acts like she wants me to ask if somethings up and always says shes fine but keeps on fucking sighing passive agressively. It gets on my nerves but maybe because I either say if im angry or just dont show it ik thats unreasonable but its a rant site for a reason

The middle east is a miserable place

i get that at times it may seem like i have no self respect, that i’m a “bird brained bitch” or anything along those lines, but i’d just like to be loved properly for once man. no hiding me, no breaking up after 2-3 months, just being loved by a person who can handle me even during harsh times in our lives. for some reason, i still think i can go back to my ex-boyfriend and try to change him to make him love me properly, but i know that’s not going to happen and i’ll just be stuck in an infinite loop of: “what if?”

I want to die. I've felt this way since I was eleven. I don't know why I feel this way. I have a good life, I have amazing friends, and a beautiful girlfriend, yet here I am. My thighs covered in scars, both new and old, and my head filled with violent thoughts that I wish were not there. I'd say I have a nice family, but I don't feel like I can talk to any of them. My mother is emotionally unavailable and makes me feel shitty when I go to talk to her about how I feel, my step-dad is just an ass who does not give a shit about how I feel(or about how anyone feels for that matter), my bio-dad is amazing but doesn't do well with emotion, and I'm not sure how to talk to my step-mother about these things(I love her to death though). I feel so trapped in my own head, like my emotions are slowly tearing me apart. I hate this. Normally, I'm really strong when it comes to this, but I've honestly been slipping recently. I don't know how much longer I can go on. I feel so alone.

how do you get over someone who you loved with everything in you but they got over you so quickly..

This vent will have nothing to do with reality at all. It's about religion. My dark religious fantasy comes when I'm filled with rage and hate. I am mad at the people who force their beliefs on to me. I know god and Jesus aren't real and I know angels and heaven aren't real but this idea came to me one day. here it goes: I want to kill everyone in heaven. I want to kill god and Jesus. I want to kill the angels too. I hate every single one of them. I hate god and Jesus and I never loved god and Jesus because they aren't real. I can't help these feelings. I want to to burn heaven and set god and Jesus on fire. I want to burn angels too. I want the light to be turned to darkness. the darkness is better than the light. I was never born to be with god and people who say this make me want to kill people and myself. God, Jesus, angels and heaven are just bad. They are toxic and love is pathetic too. People who force me to be in heaven and say I'm evolving are the dangerous ones.

I'm so tired. My head is always so loud. I don't know how to make it stop. A constant static that blares into my ears from the simplest of things. Every interaction, every event, every action I take just makes my head spin. I want it to stop. Everything is too much. Everything is too loud.

Whenever I get into a relationship, all I can think about is how undeserving and unworthy I am of the person's love and care. I'm not good-looking, I don't have a big or unique personality, and there is literally nothing striking about me. Yet they still see something. It's confusing. I'm so bland, yet they take an interest in me. There are so many other people they could've loved and cared for, yet they chose me. It makes no sense. Make it make sense.

im scared i dont fit in at school. i only talk to like three people, im always quiet, and i feel like most of my teachers dont notice me. i want to interact with my peers, but theyre too rude. they really only talk about tiktok, nike, and starbucks. they also insult people who act differently, dress differently, or look different. i became friends with those three people because they talk about stuff i actually enjoy (drawing, music, object shows, etc). i want to hang out with my peers, but theyre not very likable. sometimes i feel like they think the same about me i didnt read over this and i dont usually vent/rant, sorry

i just moved to racine wi from fl i was in jail im 16 i was living with my grandma but she no longer wanted me so dcf put me with my dad i basically have no choice in my own life i cant speak unless he tells me i can i gotta work where he wants me to work i gotta go to what college he wants me to go to he wont leave me at home when he has work and i dont i gotta ride in the truck and do servise calls with him until the end of the day im truly not a bad kid just mentally unstable i tell him but he proceeds to yell in my face im his kid and his kids are fine and then he tells me not to talk then smakes my face when i dont answer him

when I don't know what to do I seek comfort in the same night sky we used to look at together, a distant memory that'll fade like the sun rises as the moon goes and I still think of you. They say to give you the moon but just like you it slips out of my hand. the stars shine like the light used to in your eyes when we first looked at each other under this same night sky. you'll share this sky with someone else now but when I look into the stars they'll always say your name.

I genuinely think I am going to die soon. I'm so exhausted. I would never kill myself, but I'm just expecting myself to go from just... mental exhaustion. I'm using the last of my strength to make others happy, since I feel like nobody can help me at this point.

I fucking hate mormonism. I'm sick of it. I'm stuck in fuckass utah, 95% of my family is Mormon, and God they make sure I know it. It's been nearly a year since I've left that disgusting, vile cult and I'm going insane. I wish I could save my 2 younger sisters and just grab them by the shoulders and shake them and tell them that they're in a cult, and that life out here is so much better than they can comprehend right now, that they've been brainwashed for years, how eerily similar it is to the well known scientology cult, and that they need to R U N . And now, the cult leaders lately have been essentially telling the members that if they have a family member or loved one that's "strayed off the path", then they're(the members)aren't being faithful enough, aren't a truly devout member, and that if they truly fucking drown in all the teachings and doctrine and practices, then one day the "strays" will come back. I just want them to see outside. It hurts that I can't save them rn.

its getting bad again . i nvr rly struggled w cutting or stuff like that . but have never felt the need to relapse so badly . i feel like i have no one in my corner nd im js doing this alone again . nd theres a part of me that rly wishes i could take away these feelings nd my actions,but who would i be if i didnt feel the way i do nd do wht i did ? its all js too much nd im honestly thinking abt committing . theres rly only 1 person i can think of that would be able to convince me not to do it . but even then thats a reach . i have so many letters to do bcs id feel 10x worse if i said goodbye w/out one last word . but at the end of the day,do they deserve my careful words when they were the ones who left me alone ? i think abt it everyday nd im trying oh so hard not to do it for another week or two,but god its getting so hard .

i feel like my longtime lover is so disinterested lately. i know we'll get through it, but im just so sick of being anxious and tied up all the time because i feel like i love them so much. I don't know what to do.

literally everything sux sb rn,i've been in this similar situation last year nd i could barely handle feeling shitty like every day . i've started feeling this way again since january . but unlike last year i feel like this week has definitely taken its toll on me . i wasnt able to get to my scheduled therapy tdy . nd i believe that was a breaking point for me . but i forced myself to stop my crying . but i fear i wont be able to stop the tears at some point this week . my mom told me we could just schedule another session for monday,but i worry i wont even be able to make it to next week . not to mention every1 i know,nd dont know have been sticking their nose in my "relationship" nd its so overwhelming nd i genuinely js dont know what to do . im so exhausted . i dont want to vent to any of my friends or family abt it bcs i feel like a burden every time i do . i feel so guilty for talking abt my feelings .

My mum won't accept that I do not want to be a girl and that I want to be a boy. She purposely deadnames me all of the time and uses overly feminine words to describe me. She refuses to buy me a binder or anything else that would help with gender dysphoria because I'm her words "it could ruin your beautiful body for your future husband. I am just thinking about your future, and I don't want your opportunities as a women to go to waste with all of this transgender stuff". I genuinely hate her. I feel like I am being crushed by this everyday and to be honest I am so close to just trying to commit again. Then let's see her call me daughter, when her 'daughter's is dead.

I just need to rest. Everything is getting too heavy. It's just like I can't control my feelings anymore, and I'm afraid of everything. I have a lot of work to do, and not enough time, nor motivation to do any of it. I just tried to bottle it all up by laughing it up, but it doesn't work anymore, and my friends are all noticing something's wrong and asking questions I don't know how to answer, because I don't understand this either. How do I explain to someone what's so satysfying about harming your self because you just can't hurt others? One friend told me something similar, so I wanted to tell her what I did and show her that I understood perfectly and she was not alone, but words didn't come out again