Recent Rants
While it's hard to share details I've complained about life, networking, jobs, ppl and even responses. I'm a Gen Y person so dont know the types that use this but between all my problems and shit I put up with, I'm scared my life is pretty much done, body isnt doing great, mental is scarred and if i have a soul... sigh. Im wasting away and I can't stop it. I dont want to feel im already in a coffin but thats how I feel. Who cares I suppose, I know I don't ultimately matter. I wish I could at least be blissfully unaware for a few hours, just to stop meta thinking about life. I'd like to dream again.
i wish to be able to make more friends the way I was able to back when I was 11. I had a peak reputation online (on discord) and I've had sooo many friends! I had a hard time making new ones irl so that explains it lol. I'm almost old enough and the only people I have is my bf and my best friend. That's it. My phone's been dryer than ever and i'm just so dependent to them.
I feel so alone. I live in a city where I only know my boyfriend and its difficult for me to make new friends. He loves to find things to argue about and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't talk to my friends about our arguments because I don't want to talk poorly about him. I live a lot of the days hating him and hating our relationship, but we live together and I don't have anyone to talk to or go to.
Feeling the same?
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I probably don't have a soul anymore. Nothing feels the way it used to. Nothing touches me deeply. Not music, not conversations with friends, not new things or places. Everything feels eternally bland and surface level. I am tired of wanting to feel something deeper and being unable to do so.
My mental health has been bad for a while. However, after a summer of fun I guess I should be feeling better. Even then, I can't tell if I'm feeling ok because I truly am ok, or if I'm feeling okay because in reality I just feel nothing.
My boyfriend is one of the most frustrating people to deal with. Everything has to be my fault and I'm always to blame no matter the situation. I'll always be uncaring, self-centered, and stubborn. He expects me to do absolutely everything while the little amount of effort that he does put in outweighs anything that I do.
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i’m not sure how to write this, but i’m just going to try. i feel envious of people who are in relationships and i feel like something is wrong with me because of it. like i know im slightly overweight, but yet i see bigger people get into relationships and i just can’t. i never experienced someone telling me they liked me. only that i liked them (not that i would try to make it known) it hurts me a lot. i feel suicidal about it too. i also just feel numb that i eat my feelings because of it too. i just want to be seen, why can i not feel what a relationship feels like. why. am i so alone in this. no one in my real life knows what im experiencing. i dont know if im just naive or stupid to just want be in love but i feel like im missing out on an experience that everyone else understands. i don’t want to be old and single. i would hurt myself if that is what i have to be. i don’t want to live if i’m alone. i just cant.
i dont know if anybody can relate but i have a really hard time in life. From people making fun of me, believing bad rumours, to not respecting my personal autonomy or my bodily autonomy. From my family not respecting me and people really going out of there way to destroy my life in any way possible really. It was just really tough. Now i find it even harder to make friends and socialize and be normal again cause my mental state is just so depressed.
you're horrible and you completely ruined me and you are a manipulative little liar, you manipulated my other friends to turn on me and now i have nothing and no one, you were the closest friend ive ever had, and i only now realise how selfish and manipulative you were this whole time. i dont know how i can recover from how you changed me and i cant even make new friends because of it, you changed how i think on a level i didnt know and now i have nightmares every night because of you, harm myself because of you, and want to die because of you
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Funny. I always let everyone else nap. But me? When I'm I get woke by blah blah blah in the next room because somebody has a big mouth when they get up. They freaked me out too by how they acted. I let them sleep or take a power nap why couldn't I?
I just broke up with my first partner of 2 years. I never knew grief would come with such agonizing guilt. I feel like I'm the bad guy somehow, when it hasn't even been 24 hours, and I can't stop crying. I still love and care for him deeply, but my choice was driven by wanting our mental health to improve before going any further. The jealousy was becoming overbearing, others were growing tense, and I, tired. Yet we also were each others everything, however I just so happened to be the anchor. When something went wrong I felt like it was my fault, even now I feel I should've done more than I already had, but I'm no professional. Maybe in the future there will be improvement, possibly even a second chance, who knows. I surely don't. I just feel like a piece of me was taken yet it was a clean understanding and we're remaining cival in the meantime. Is it just too early in the process for this pain to go away? I just need to know everything will be okay.
i feel like im forgetting how to eat, i cant even finish a burger and im also starting to get more worried about my weight, i dropped almost 10kg in maybe one or two months and i dont think thats normal. when i check bmi it says im underweight, but i heard its inaccurate. i dont know what to do, im scared of telling somebody
im so fucking scared of my brother. I see him in the hallway and I start having suicidal thoughts again when I'm in my room, and I haven't had any in a long time :/ It's just so confusing, one day he is really nice to me, next day he treats me like shit. I don't know how to feel about it, it's so confusing, i hate him so much but i also want to be him in way??? I don't want to be an asshole like him, maybe its just because we're siblings, i dont know, im scared and confused. Sometimes when he enters a room, I even get so scared, like say I'm having a conversation, I can't speak anymore until he's gone :(
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I feel like such a loser it's not even funny. Even the so called 'losers' in middle school are now going to parties, have friends, they go out while I stay here with my social anxiety making it impossible to meet my two friends in big events with lots of people. My best friend says she would like to see me more but she's always hanging out with her best friends. I try to convince myself I'm not jealous but I clearly am. Who wouldn't be, even a little. I don't do anything productive either, like I draw, dance, write but the skills aren't there for any of my hobbies. Biggest things I achieved in life are graduating, and learning a 3rd language. Which is english, so it's not that hard let's be honest. I wish I was good at something, wheter it be art, dancing, talking to people, being social, writing, making friends I'll take anything I just want to be good at something. I'm not even pretty so I can't even use that to have people around me, even fake people just there for my looks.
Ok so this is like kinda weird (btw I’m biologically female) not really necessary but Idc Ok so I have a fear of blood and people vomiting, but there’s one exception with blood bc I can look at period blood fine except for feeling disgusted I’m fine, but any other type of blood ever if it’s a drawing or a cut, anything like that I gag for like 5 minutes straight, but I find it weird because I’m scared of vomit ( I have been close to vomiting once from gagging) Is that weird bc I honestly don’t know??
Am I the bad person? My older sister(20) has always been rude to me since we were kids which I find weird since we literally have a 6 year age gap. I feel bad for thinking that she is annoying or rude but everyone ALWAYS says that she is. She makes jokes about things she knows you are uncomfortable with and then if you tell her something she starts an argument. She also always asks my mom for money and stuff even when she knows we can't afford it. She always favorites my older brother and it's really weird, she also gets jealous for some reason when he talks with girls his age (She is older then him BTW). I don't know and it doesn't help that we are half siblings too I barely found out when I was like eight years old. She is genuinely so mean and I also committed because of how badly she was treating me(I was 11 and she was 17) I even wrote letters... I truthfully wanted to.
I hate myself. I'm insecure about my weight and I have marching band and a crush there and I have to wear shorts but I just look ugly and feel fat. Idk what to do anymore.