All Rants

I found out my partner lied to me about something, but I only found out because I was spying on him. I’m not sure if I should even say anything. It’s eating away at my thoughts no matter how I try to distract myself. I didn’t trust him, and was hoping to be proven wrong. But now I don’t think I can trust him at all.. I’m conflicted on what to do or when to say something if I do at all.

I hate my fucking genetics 💔😕 I can’t have a kid because I don’t want my kid growing up with my disability 💔

My sister just passed away. She had stage 4 lung cancer. We never repaired our relationship because of me. I never got to say goodbye. I don’t think I can forgive myself for it.

I wish I could process stuff like a normal person, I hate being autistic.

this is so dumb i'm so scared for school it starts tomorrow and i have no classes with friends

Slang now is so fucking stupid 💔 like…Tf you mean you are “gooning”?? WDYM?? SPEAK ENGLISH BITCH. Or like “sigma” huh?! Or “alpha” 😡 no. Just stop, you are embarrassing yourself 💔 I grew up with “Bruh” idk if it’s still a thing? But that was my slang ❤️‍🩹 even “Sus” BRO AMONG US TAUGHT US SM-… red is NOT always imposter, your imposter buddies will stab YOU 😕 and now kids are crying because their “aura” (? Tf is that?) is -100??? What? I hate new slang 💔💔💔

Just got a 70% on my quiz.. My lowest score ever was a 90% and I cried for days about that. I'm supposed to be the smart kid... I fucking hate being the "gifted kid" because it used to be natural ofc soon enough I start spending all my time studying even when I should be sleeping and its still not fucking enough. The pencil sharpener is looking really good right now

It's like the whole world wants to stay salty and pissed about something all the time. That in it's self is frustrating. This life is too short. Tbh I think those in the 60s had the right idea with slogans make love not war. And the Beatles all we need is love. Fr people need to chill tf out anymore. That's just my feelings.

I’m so fucking pissed. Why can’t someone just like serial killers and gore and horror? Why do you always have to ask “but you’re not gonna kill someone, right?” when I tell you those are my interests. lowk it might be you if you don’t SHUT THE FUCK UP 🖤🥹 My fuckass family and friends think im going fucking crazy and im gonna start killing people. I don’t think so. Not right now at least, BUT STILL. JUST LET ME BE. YOU ASKED ME WHAT I WAS WATCHING/RESEARCHING/LISTENING SO IM GOING TO TELL YOU. ARGHHHHHHHHH JUST KNOW ITS GOING TO BE SOME BLOODY SHIT 😭

I sometimes want to kill myself, but I know I can't. I'm too big of a pussy and have already stopped so many from doing it.

I don't want to feel this way. I feel my friends could replace me, but I don't believe they would. I was friends with one, got close, we'd play and do so many things, and now another is here and I feel just a pinch more outcasted. But they don't outright exclude me. And that's where I get confused because I know they text directly to each other when I'm right there, and yet, both have still tried to include me. I feel so split, or maybe I'm just overthinking??

This is going to upset people..BUT READ BEFORE YOU GET ANGRY OR AGGRESSIVE TOWARDS ME💔.. I hate how Disney changed white characters to black or other races. Like.. 1. It’s a classic, why not read some history about black or other races THEN make a character for them? The little mermaid isn’t back..shes white, make a new mermaid! Or learn some black history like jazz music is from black ppl, do something with that, (like the princess and the frog did) do something other then changing white Disney characters to black. the black culture would hate if we made Tina white. Make a new princess or character for them. Hopefully someone understands this and if you try to comment I won’t look at it ❤️ but really, Disney just needs to make a new character FOR other races that ARE RELATED TO THAT RACE. Learn some history about the race THEN MAKE A NEW CHARACTER. We are all gorgeous and I’m pretty sure you, Disney could look up some history about a race THEN DO THAT AS A CHARACTER.

I genuinely hate people who now make my childhood characters into “sluts” meaning, they remake them into Ai/ real art that is sexualizing them. Like…can we fucking not? AND WHY DO TODDLERS GET BIKINIS AS SWIMMING OUTFITS?! TF? And I fr hate girls who comment on each other’s bodies. Like…bitch- you are not special- you are just insecure. 😕 I’m sorry you are insecure- really I am…but to put a girl down just because she doesn’t wanna lose her v card at 16 when you probably lost it earlier…WELL WHAT WHERE YOU THINKING? (((Not relating to grape. You willingly did it.))) YOU TAKE YOUR CL0THES OFF WITH A GUY WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GONNA HAPPEN? I also hate ppl who say stuff like “ same person BTW. “ or “ it’s me BTW “ stfu 😡 or people who get mad at you just because you don’t wanna talk about LGBTQ… like…i literally don’t wanna talk about that because it makes me uncomfortable + my religion forbids being apart of that. So…like. Let’s just hang out and talk about idk, anything but that.

Fuck the British education system.

While it's hard to share details I've complained about life, networking, jobs, ppl and even responses. I'm a Gen Y person so dont know the types that use this but between all my problems and shit I put up with, I'm scared my life is pretty much done, body isnt doing great, mental is scarred and if i have a soul... sigh. Im wasting away and I can't stop it. I dont want to feel im already in a coffin but thats how I feel. Who cares I suppose, I know I don't ultimately matter. I wish I could at least be blissfully unaware for a few hours, just to stop meta thinking about life. I'd like to dream again.

i wish to be able to make more friends the way I was able to back when I was 11. I had a peak reputation online (on discord) and I've had sooo many friends! I had a hard time making new ones irl so that explains it lol. I'm almost old enough and the only people I have is my bf and my best friend. That's it. My phone's been dryer than ever and i'm just so dependent to them.

I feel so alone. I live in a city where I only know my boyfriend and its difficult for me to make new friends. He loves to find things to argue about and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't talk to my friends about our arguments because I don't want to talk poorly about him. I live a lot of the days hating him and hating our relationship, but we live together and I don't have anyone to talk to or go to.

10 days clean :)))) I'm super proud :) Good luck to y'all.

I probably don't have a soul anymore. Nothing feels the way it used to. Nothing touches me deeply. Not music, not conversations with friends, not new things or places. Everything feels eternally bland and surface level. I am tired of wanting to feel something deeper and being unable to do so.

My mental health has been bad for a while. However, after a summer of fun I guess I should be feeling better. Even then, I can't tell if I'm feeling ok because I truly am ok, or if I'm feeling okay because in reality I just feel nothing.