All Rants

The only thing that is stopping me from relapsing right now is listening to come on Eileen on repeat because that’s too embarrassing of a song to cut yourself too

i feel like my friends don't like me so i have these two friends im going to call them 1 and 2 so ive been friends with 1 for 6 years now and I've been friends with 2 for a year and so recently 1 has been ignoring me, she yelled at me when i told her i couldn't play volleyball because of my foot and she was like YES YOU CAN! and i was NO I CANT and she kept making fun plans with 2 and posting all over her social media account and 1 and 2 know my parents wouldn't let me hangout because i have very protective and strict parents and so it's been annoying and like we went to the park and on the way back i tried to fit on the side next to tehm on the sidewalk and they practically pushef me in back of them and then whenever they see eachother they completely ignore me and forget im there and like when we are walking around and talking they talk about things idk and im in the back of them alone walking like an idiot and people stare at me

I don't know why I can't be loved by my own partner. It's like he just loves me when he has no other friends, I never wanted to be in a dumb poly with some random.

I’m scared he’ll change his mind about us after I have already fallen in love with him. I don’t want my heart to break when I have finally let myself love. And a part of me keeps saying “That’s why we built those walls. Now you’re going to regret it.” I want to ignore it. Have faith. In Allah. In him. In myself. But it’s very hard. Anxiety doesn’t ask for permission. It feeds on the unknown

I feel like I’m not enough I’m fat and ugly. I’m so done with being here. Being the oldest child out of the sibilings is very hard. All the pressure is on me and it’s way too much on me. I’m a seventh grader and I’m supposed to go from “not knowing much” to “be more respectful, responsible and be a good human” how am I supposed to do that? I’m just 13 years old and I don’t wanna be here anymore. I hate myself I hate my life and I’m so cringe when I look at old photos of me like I’m so stupid. I have myself

ever since I started using this site I realize how many people are privately hurting just like me, i love you guys and really wish the best for all of us, and thank you for the kind people that took the time to leave a nice note or press a "hang in there" "i get that" or "same here" I guess it makes me feel less alone, and I hope the coming days get easier for all of us

Burn out sucks so much in every aspect. I'm so fucking lazy and can't do anything with actual joy in it. Genuinely might end it.

I won’t let anyone help me. I’m so private with the things that go on in my life, I can’t help but protect myself in that way. I just want to isolate myself. I don’t think I deserve to be in a relationship because of how badly I’m doing mentally. I don’t want to admit it’s not working out. I can’t talk to a single person about it. I feel so alone with it all. It’s a long distance relationship, I’ve known this person for over a decade too. I don’t expect others to understand it. Things have been pretty bad though since we’ve gotten together and I’m only hurting myself and them. It’s so hard when you love someone but you start to question if it’s worth it to be with someone who causes you stress and pain, I cause them the same by being so distant and avoidant. They tell me they would never give up on me. I don’t even believe that sometimes.

so liek I have a friend who lowkey pisses me off now but we have so many good memories together. I swear like it’s been getting hard, I decide I don’t wanna be friends with her but then we have a heartfelt conversation and it reminds me of why I became friends with her in the first place, she’s literally my twin but the way she treats me and other people sometimes can’t go unnoticed I feel like I’m gonna be unhappy regardless of what I choose

If someone’s being stalked why would they willingly stay in contact with that person…? Why wouldn’t they just block and stay away from social media that they can access them on? I’m having a hard time understanding it. I’m starting to think this person isn’t actually afraid or disgusted with the stalker, but likes the attention. Feeds their ego or something.

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I forgot to put shoes on before walking on a treadmill for an hour and now I have a blister on my heel. I’m so annoyed, this was avoidable lol

Things are getting bad again, all I can do is hope things turn around but I'm constantly shedding tears and struggling on how I'm supposed to keep my composure around others now, I wish I wasn't like this, I wish I was just good at doing what I need to instead of running away because everything's just too much for me to handle alone, people say that you're not alone whenever I've been at my lowest I didn't have anyone that could help me

I found out my partner lied to me about something, but I only found out because I was spying on him. I’m not sure if I should even say anything. It’s eating away at my thoughts no matter how I try to distract myself. I didn’t trust him, and was hoping to be proven wrong. But now I don’t think I can trust him at all.. I’m conflicted on what to do or when to say something if I do at all.

I hate my fucking genetics 💔😕 I can’t have a kid because I don’t want my kid growing up with my disability 💔

My sister just passed away. She had stage 4 lung cancer. We never repaired our relationship because of me. I never got to say goodbye. I don’t think I can forgive myself for it.

I wish I could process stuff like a normal person, I hate being autistic.

this is so dumb i'm so scared for school it starts tomorrow and i have no classes with friends

Slang now is so fucking stupid 💔 like…Tf you mean you are “gooning”?? WDYM?? SPEAK ENGLISH BITCH. Or like “sigma” huh?! Or “alpha” 😡 no. Just stop, you are embarrassing yourself 💔 I grew up with “Bruh” idk if it’s still a thing? But that was my slang ❤️‍🩹 even “Sus” BRO AMONG US TAUGHT US SM-… red is NOT always imposter, your imposter buddies will stab YOU 😕 and now kids are crying because their “aura” (? Tf is that?) is -100??? What? I hate new slang 💔💔💔

Just got a 70% on my quiz.. My lowest score ever was a 90% and I cried for days about that. I'm supposed to be the smart kid... I fucking hate being the "gifted kid" because it used to be natural ofc soon enough I start spending all my time studying even when I should be sleeping and its still not fucking enough. The pencil sharpener is looking really good right now