All Rants

I have recently found out my fiancée is a lying slut. I found out she cheated on me, got pregnant, and had an abortion to hide. I found out she cheated on me at least 2 other times. I went through her phone and found old videos before we were together of her sucking dick. She originally told me that she only does it for me. I found all this stuff out a couple of weeks ago. I’m utterly disgusted. I can’t even look at this girl the same. Ready to go.

My brother attempted for the fourth time this summer I know it’s not my fault but I blame myself for not being enough for him. I’m scared of one day actually losing him I don’t know when his next attempt could be but what if he doesn’t wake up this time I’m scared of losing my only brother.

I don’t think I’ll ever stop hating myself

I hate my manager so much, if he died I would be so happy.

i think our relationship is over… but i don’t want it to end i love you z i love you more than you could ever imagine.

My father died and I wanna too

I get violently jealous of other people's traumas to the point that I hurt myself. What's the good in being alive with a brain this ill?

I’ll try my best but I know it’ll never be enough, when will I be okay with myself?

I dont know whats normal and what isnt. I feel empty. I cant vent without feeling like a burden. I cant speak up without getting ignored. i feel lost in everything. My brothers bsf touched me multiple times. i tried to get him to stop, but he wouldn't. after that night, i couldn't stop thinking abt it. i cried for hrs. when i tried to tell my brother, all he did was slap me and tell my im all full of shit. i tried ending things, but im too scared of the pain and what'll happen. will anyone care? like, at all? or will they act like i never rlly existed in their eyes. The pain between my legs is still strong. the thoughts and voices are too loud. the bruises and marks on my arms are too painful. ever since that night, ive been too scared to say anything.

I wish I had a sister who I was super close with. A sister who is also my best friend. I have 4 sisters, and yet none of us are close. I’d love to be closer with them but they just don’t seem interested in being close. I think one of my sisters hates me and one is jealous of me but I just wish that I could have a best friend who’s also my sister. I always wanted that but I don’t have it and it’s sad. I don’t even really know what goes on in their lives.

I wanna die where the water fills my lungs, The most painful death, yet the most silent one. Don’t worry about me I’ll go without a splash or a scream Maybe one day I’ll be in the trunks of a tree, Maybe one day I’ll go far out at sea or on maybe just far out on an endless stream. Maybe one day you won’t even recognize me. If you do truly care please do what’s best, I don’t want the attention I just need the rest. I just want to die where the water fills my lungs, A choice that ensures so one can hear my splashes my screams, Somewhere out, far from my looping agony.

What do you do when you only really have yourself. When there’s no one to lean on. No one to bring you happiness. No one to keep you company or to share your life with. Just only yourself and the vast universe with whom to share your true self with.

Why is it so hard to find honest good friends. I just want someone in my life that will appreciate me for me and not to just use me. I want someone who listens and doesn’t judge me. Someone to be in my corner. Even my own sisters only like me when they want something from me.

What do you do when you can’t even see your skin anymore, when your arms tingle and head starts to spin from lack of blood. Instead of crying I grab a blade because I was taught women must not be emotional. Though most think the same about men I used to get punished for crying as a child, now when I do cry as a teen I punish myself by cutting and cutting and cutting until I can’t even stand up from my head pounding.

Just made a vent abt leaving life off a bridge. Thanks to the dude who responded. Can’t respond to a note but yea I’m 13 haha, gotta wait to get a car at least. Then drive off it lol. Anyways thanks dude, already left the bridge and headed home. Just miles to walk lmao.

I live with one of my sisters and it is mentally taxing. I’ve always tried my best to be a good sister and yet she despises me. Just being around her I can feel her hatred towards me and almost like she sucks the energy from my body. We have other siblings but she has no problem with them or even if they tell her off she doesn’t get too bothered but if I say anything or even try to defend myself she’ll start a fight and say some really cruel things and make up lies. She’s even told me I should kill myself before and I would never tell that to anyone especially not my own sister. She’s constantly mumbling under her breath and saying things that are not true. And the worst thing is that she later act like nothing happened and wants to go out or watch tv together. I’m not one to hold a grudge but her attitude towards me is not something that I can overlook.

I keep having the same dream, it's terrifying. I'm in my partners room when something triggers a panic attack for me and I start pulling my hair and clawing at my throat cuz I can't breath. My partner tries to help but I just can't hear her at all anymore. Then I started hitting myself I wack my head then punch my thighs over and over and over again until my partner puts their hand in the way, I hurt her, I grab her hand and ask if she's ok and if it hurts, all while still not breathing well, then the dream stops. I don't know what it means or if it means anything at all.

My limbs burn, my arms itch, they’re still sticky and red from the tears I couldn’t cry

It feels like I’ve been through hell and back, started my life over countless times and lost the most important loved ones in my life.. that isn’t the problem I’m facing right now, lost my job went back to my old job as I need income to support my family and my 4 year old son. I’m having problems with my finance who thinks social media is more important then her relationship, go figure majority of her followers are men who msg and leave comments daily.. if I say something I’m wrong, if I have standards of respect for myself, it’s self care to her.. if there’s something I don’t like she goes cold and dismisses me like I walked in and out of her life.. no fight to keep me at all.. I feel like my whole life I’ve come second. I don’t wanto be the angry and combative person I was growing up. I wanto be happy, I deserve love, I deserve to come home and someone is happy I made it through the day. Someone to tell me everything okay and they are proud of me.. just wanto feel safe..

Resentment with boyfriend that pressured me into talking again and now I’m stuck in a sexless relationship